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[spes_phthisica]

so uh
i have seen certain kinds of relationships between gods and shinki argued for or against and all that
but this isnt really about that

what i want to know is more
what are you supposed to do as a shinki if you cant help having certain feelings for your god
and you KNOW that your god knows about this?

i mean its hard to avoid if you keep stinging your god every time you look at them in a certain way
right???

my god doesnt seem angry about it or anything
actually they seem to think its fun
and you think they could show a bit of compassion and wear a bit more clothes around the temple but nooooo

im just wondering what im supposed to do about this
its getting embarrassing :(

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[brynwieldr]

Talk to them about it.

[spes_phthisica]

but if my god is already aware of it...
i mean what is there to say

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[mermaiding]

[Who has time to type?? whats the point of hiding it??? She rests her chin in her hand and speaks bluntly:]

Have sex with him.

text forever save him

[spes_phthisica]

um
but i dont know if thats something he wants

[kagenonadeshiko]

maybe you shouldn't feel guilty about it.
there's nothing wrong with being attracted to someone.
unless he's too young for you. he's not too young for you, is he?

[spes_phthisica]

nooooo definitely not
its just that well
it feels a bit disrespectful to stare at someone youre supposed to be serving like that

Anon

[koukai_kirai]

No need to feel guilty if they're having fun showing off.

R U D E

[spes_phthisica]

i guess...
i mean it really seems like theyre just doing it to tease me by now
but that doesnt mean that my reaction is any less embarrassing >_

[justclaws]

I would think it entirely inappropriate to have such thoughts about your master, no matter what kind of a man he may be. Your station and his are entirely different, and it would be the height of presumption to attempt to cross such a boundary.

[spes_phthisica]

thats what it feels like yes
but i cant help how i feel
and honestly at this point its almost as if hes trying to make me feel like that

butting in here; video

[mermaiding]

[She raises an eyebrow, cheek pressed to her palm]

You sound boring.

[revolutionfalcon]

If you both know about it already, why the hell haven't you just talked about it yet? Playing some stupid game and dancing around the subject is a waste of time for both of you.

And if you're that easily distracted by someone wearing less clothes than normal, that's your fault.

[spes_phthisica]

well um
i havent because its embarrassing
i dont know why he hasnt

and i would agree in general that its my job to deal with it
but im pretty sure hes doing it on purpose by now
and then he has a smug expression

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[reformedsinner]

Don't leave it unspoken, especially if you're stinging your god because of your feelings. Telling him how you feel will force him to give you a clear response.

Even if he doesn't return your feelings, it's better to know what he wants you to do than what we think you should do, isn't it?

[spes_phthisica]

yes i feel very bad about the stinging
so i really should talk to him about it huh
i dont want to be a burden to him after all

i guess its just a bit
not exactly scary
but its hard

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[untodeath]

I'm a little jealous, I have to say. If only my shinki felt the same way!

You know, in ancient Greece, erotic bonds were encouraged between members of the militia. It was thought to promote morale and courage, and their armies were indeed forces to be reckoned with!

Passion and devotion are strong, driving forces, and there's nothing wrong with that. 💋

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[spes_phthisica]

you have such feelings for your shinki too then?
i cant imagine thats uncomplicated either if thats the case

and that does sound really nice
sort of right in a way
like it makes a lot of sense

if that was the kind of relationship he wanted to have
well
i wouldnt mind it

Anon

[noli_oblivisci]

[First people using the boards for hookups and now this?]

If you're worried about stinging him for looking at him the wrong way, you can always ask him to cut you a break. Since he's in danger too if you're stinging him all the time.

[spes_phthisica]

i suppose so
i mean i really dont want to inconvenience him
and hes already told me i dont have to feel guilty about my feelings

but "please put on a shirt or something you are being distracting" feels like an embarrassing thing to say

[stonebird]

If they see you as a mere amusement, I suggest you find another to desire.

[spes_phthisica]

oh no! no im sorry i really didnt mean to give that impression
hes really sweet and cares about me a lot
just because he teases me sometimes doesnt mean that is all i am to him

From: Jay

[rev13_3]

You sting your god?

[spes_phthisica]

i dont mean to!!!
its just that sometimes i end up staring at him or something
and then i feel a bit guilty about it :c

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[leapingchuu]

Well. Is he cute?

And really, if he thinks it's fun, I don't think you have anything to worry about. You might try asking him for a date, though!

shhh it's fine

[spes_phthisica]

REALLY cute
hes the cutest

you think so???
i dont really know how you date though

Anon; text

[volksdaemon]

I can guess who this is, easy.

[Except his guess is only right about the target, not the writer.]

i might die laughing

[spes_phthisica]

oh

i tried to not give too much away but
i guess im not very good at it huh

not anon, never

[disciplineking]

Why would someone not wearing clothes be distracting? This entire premise is ridiculous. If you weren't such a coward whatever this is wouldn't be a problem.

[spes_phthisica]

um
because hes very pretty??
and thats not a very nice thing to say :P

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[eternalshield]

[Zeno takes a moment to feel a little sad, because his shinki, who was his wife before she died, hasn't stung him at all... so she's probably not wrestling with those feelings.]

If you're stinging your god, you know what you're doing is wrong, because you can only sting your god by doing something you know is wrong, right?

So before you decide what to do, you have to decide if you want to do the right thing or the wrong thing.

And if you do the wrong thing, please have lots of holy water on hand!

[spes_phthisica]

im not sure
i mean from what he has said it doesnt bother him that i feel this way
its just that it embarrasses me and then it makes me feel guilty

but then again i wouldnt know i think
i dont really understand right and wrong
my god is a lot better at that

From: Lakshmi

[clothes_make_the_man]

As awkward as it might be, it sounds like you and your god need to talk things out. At the very least, you need to agree on what the expectations are for your relationship. If it goes past just stinging, it could be a problem for both of you.

[spes_phthisica]

it looks more and more like i should be doing this yes
i mean its not exactly as if im expecting anything more than to serve him
i dont want to seem ungrateful because im not
maybe thats why its so difficult to talk to him about this

[not here, sorry I had to sdhfjsdfs]

[likethelight]

[ ...







That's it, Allen's turning his phone off. NO GOOD CAN COME FROM THIS "BULLETIN BOARD" THING. It's not even a real board!!!! ]

anon

[fadingsunshine]

Is that really that bad? Shinki liking gods, I mean. They don't feel that different than us to me when it comes to their heart. Every god I've met have been treating me all casually.

I, um... I find my god really cute and nice! I thought all shinki felt the same fluttery emotion about their gods, like a link? I don't know if it's a crush and I don't think I'd tell him if he thinks it's a bad thing, but I don't really... feel like it's wrong.

[Here's someone with a growing crush who's not stinging her god out of pure naivety. Not yet, at least.]

[spes_phthisica]

[And Souji really isn't the best reference point either, since his feelings on the subject are rather... extreme.]

well im not exactly sure myself

i mean its natural and only makes sense for us to love our gods with all our hearts
its not as if i feel bad about that at all
but the attraction part of it sometimes makes me feel embarrassed
i mean i wouldnt want to impose that on him if you see what i mean

From: Kairi; Text

[pure_radiantics]

Oh my this is... I can't even imagine that in my situation. I wish you the best.

[spes_phthisica]

yes i am assuming most shinki still dont feel quite like this
i mean thats one reason why i feel embarrassed about the staring and so on
but thank you