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[spes_phthisica]

so uh
i have seen certain kinds of relationships between gods and shinki argued for or against and all that
but this isnt really about that

what i want to know is more
what are you supposed to do as a shinki if you cant help having certain feelings for your god
and you KNOW that your god knows about this?

i mean its hard to avoid if you keep stinging your god every time you look at them in a certain way
right???

my god doesnt seem angry about it or anything
actually they seem to think its fun
and you think they could show a bit of compassion and wear a bit more clothes around the temple but nooooo

im just wondering what im supposed to do about this
its getting embarrassing :(

Comments

[kagenonadeshiko]

PLEASE BE QUIET.
YOU KNOW NOTHING OF THESE MATTERS.

[Someone accidentally hit capslock and isn't tech or internet savvy enough to realize she's shouting.]

[justclaws]

I know as much as anyone else who has read this message which, ignoring my own experiences, is not a lot. I see no reason why my aDVICE SHOULD BE CONSIDERED ANY LESS VALID THAN ANYONE ELSE'S.

[justclaws]

WHY IS MY WRITING COMING OUT LIKE THIS?

I CANNOT SEEM TO MAKE IT STOP.

[kagenonadeshiko]

I DON'T KNOW WHY EITHER. STUPID MACHINES.
ANYWAY
SOME US KNOW MORE THAN OTHERS AND YOUR ADVICE IS TERRIBLE AND THE LAST THING HE NEEDS TO HEAR.

[justclaws]

I FAIL TO SEE WHAT IS SO TERRIBLE ABOUT PUTTING YOUR DUTIES AND RESPONSIBILITIES BEFORE YOUR DESIRES.

[kagenonadeshiko]

BECAUSE LIFE ISN'T JUST THAT. IT'S MORE THAN DUTY. MORE THAN RESPONSIBILITY. THOSE ARE JUST PARTS OF IT.
IF YOU JUST FOCUS ON THOSE, ONE DAY WHEN YOU'RE OLDER, YOU'LL WAKE UP AND REALIZE IT'S ALL THAT YOU'VE EVER HAD. AND THEN IT MIGHT BE TOO LATE TO HAVE ANYTHING BUT REGRETS.

[justclaws]

I HAVE SUGGESTED NOTHING TO YOUR COMPANION THAT I HAVE NOT FIRST ASKED OF MYSELF. i was born to serve my master and I shoulder that burden gladly.

How can you ever regret a duty cheerfully done?

[kagenonadeshiko]

when it accomplishes nothing.
people aren't born to serve anyone. they're taught to think that way so they'll accept their orders without dissent or complaint. it's a strategy to ensure obedience.
limiting a servant's knowledge of anything but what they need to know to perform and succeed in their duties increases the likelihood of compliance.
you sound very young or very naive and i'm not sure which.

[justclaws]

Yet I was born to serve my master, and I do so with joy. That is the fate of the ones who share the blood of the Four Dragons, and even were I to desire such a thing, I could no more walk from my obligations than I could command the sun not to shine. As for what answering that call may accomplish, I have seen the difference my master has made with my own eyes.

You may call that naivety if that is what you wish.