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[reformedsinner]

Posted: 28 May
From: Anonymous

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I have a question for the shinki among us.

How important to you is your connection to your god?

If you could go without a name, and not worry about your safety or a place to stay, would you prefer to?


[All comments from Hakkai will be anonymous unless otherwise marked.]

Comments

[kokuyoyo]

It's control given. I don't see it as a problem.

[reformedsinner]

I see.

If someone were to choose a god for you and hand you over to them, then, you wouldn't mind?

Assuming you did not currently have one, of course.

[kokuyoyo]

[A pause in responses.]

Assuming I did not meet the one I have now?

[reformedsinner]

Yes. Or the one you have now revoked your name or disappeared.

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[kokuyoyo]

[Much faster this time-]

I wouldn't let that happen. I won't disappoint him.

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[kokuyoyo]

[Another response comes a second after, at his usual mild speed.]

I don't think it's the same if a third party did it like that... The situation doesn't feel the same.

[reformedsinner]

Sometimes you can't stop it.

If you think about it, though, most of us haven't chosen the gods we're with. We've been assigned to them in the first place.

[kokuyoyo]

I'm his only shinki. He needs me.

If I were assigned, I would have been told where to go. Axel-sama came to find me himself. If they assigned us, then it seems logical to make sure that we don't run off, or at least know who to find to explain things to us.

I understand they run an inefficient system but there has to be limits.

Axel-sama found me. I'm meant to be his. If he disappeared without warning, I'd make another god help me find him again.

[reformedsinner]

Naivete is only charming for a little while, you know.

Maybe you're right to think that way in the end.

[kokuyoyo]

I can't let myself think any other way.

[reformedsinner]

Yes. But that's a different question entirely.

Perhaps think of it like this: "if my god died."

[kokuyoyo]

[A loooooooong pause.]

That sort of question doesn't deserve being discussed with a faceless person.

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[reformedsinner]

Doesn't it?

I'm not hiding my identity. I'm just interested in honest answers for a companion's sake.

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[kokuyoyo]

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So not for yourself?

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[reformedsinner]

I already know my own answer.

I can't make a decision for someone else based on that, though.

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[kokuyoyo]

Then let them make their own decision.

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[reformedsinner]

He's incapable. I don't know if you've noticed yet, but some of the shinki who come here appear to have been damaged in the process. They don't speak much and they have very little will of their own.

He seemed attached to his previous god, but that's all I can say.

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[kokuyoyo]

I see....

Maybe you should put him out of his misery then.

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[reformedsinner]

Maybe that would be the kindest thing, but I'm not that kind.

In any case, I doubt his former god would thank me for it if I did.

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[kokuyoyo]

But still asking about it.

The former god is still here?

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[reformedsinner]

No.

[So does it really matter what he thinks about it? If he's dead, or his soul is trapped somewhere...?

It still, Hakkai has to admit, matters to him.]

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[kokuyoyo]

Then I don't see why it matters what the former god would think.

[Well. Blunt, at least.]

...Should I give a more indepth answer?

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[reformedsinner]

I considered him a good friend. It's for his sake that I'd like to look after his shinki properly, so his feelings are the most important factor.

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[kokuyoyo]

I see. So that's why you're going to this much trouble?

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[reformedsinner]

Yes. I'd like to find a situation for him that is at least... comfortable.

I may look after him myself until I find a god who has the space and temperament to take care of him properly.