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Posted: 28 May
From: Anonymous

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I have a question for the shinki among us.

How important to you is your connection to your god?

If you could go without a name, and not worry about your safety or a place to stay, would you prefer to?

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Yes. But that's a different question entirely.

Perhaps think of it like this: "if my god died."

[A loooooooong pause.]

That sort of question doesn't deserve being discussed with a faceless person.

Doesn't it?

I'm not hiding my identity. I'm just interested in honest answers for a companion's sake.

[!]

So not for yourself?

I already know my own answer.

I can't make a decision for someone else based on that, though.

Then let them make their own decision.

He's incapable. I don't know if you've noticed yet, but some of the shinki who come here appear to have been damaged in the process. They don't speak much and they have very little will of their own.

He seemed attached to his previous god, but that's all I can say.

I see....

Maybe you should put him out of his misery then.

Maybe that would be the kindest thing, but I'm not that kind.

In any case, I doubt his former god would thank me for it if I did.

But still asking about it.

The former god is still here?

No.

[So does it really matter what he thinks about it? If he's dead, or his soul is trapped somewhere...?

It still, Hakkai has to admit, matters to him.]

Then I don't see why it matters what the former god would think.

[Well. Blunt, at least.]

...Should I give a more indepth answer?

I considered him a good friend. It's for his sake that I'd like to look after his shinki properly, so his feelings are the most important factor.

I see. So that's why you're going to this much trouble?

Yes. I'd like to find a situation for him that is at least... comfortable.

I may look after him myself until I find a god who has the space and temperament to take care of him properly.

It seems like you've decided then.

Yes... I think I have.

The only ones who object to having a god are those who object to the idea of having anyone hold power over them, it seems.

And, of course, no one wants a god who would treat them badly.

[Another noticeable pause.]

Have many people here had gods that do so?

A few. Both of the gods I personally witnessed mistreating shinki have left, but there's at least one here who I have heard has named shinki against their will.

Do people in the Far Shore do anything against that?

I have.

Heaven's laws don't seem to have anything to say about how a shinki should be treated, though. Not that I've heard, at least.

They don’t seem very prepared for any of this.

The older gods here have had shinki of their own for a long, long time.

I suspect the truth of the matter is that it's always been up to each god to handle on their own. If they treat us too badly, our negative feelings may hurt them in turn, after all.

[Somewhere, a dysfunctional teenager is pausing and quietly going "Fuck"]

Clearly it doesn't seem to be working well even with that...

That's why it's important to hold it against your god if you're treated badly. Forgiveness only lets them get away with bad behavior.

[Embrace resentment! Stand up for yourself!]

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