thefarshore | HEAVEN'S BBS

Fair enough. [He's... not going to disagree with that, honestly. Once again he could for the sake of niceties, but honestly, the nerve of this place— shoving the memory of Jae-Ha's death on him like that, and making him carry it alone for who knows how long? Even the clarity of it, unlike normal memories of his own...

Well, he's certainly burdened, that's for sure. It's not the first time he's carried a life, and it's different in so many ways, but the strain on his shoulders is the same.

But back to his point, which is getting Jae-Ha to face him so he can do this thing that's just occurred to him. This will mean something to both of them, regardless, but he can only hope he isn't about to make a huge mistake. So without hesitating he reaches out to touch Jae-Ha's scaly leg, first with his fingertips and then sliding to let his palm rest there.

Feels like lizard. He doesn't know what he expected.]

You're not cursed. I'm an exorcist, remember? I'd know.

[fuckin.....smooth]

[It's not what he expects at all. The only one who had ever wanted to touch his leg was Kija, and he was a strange one, so to have Hazel reaching over like that... At first, Jae-Ha half lifts one of his hands, like he means to stop him before he accidentally brushes against his gross leg.

But no, he was reaching there on purpose. For him...? To say those comforting words about something Jae-Ha knows he's not comfortable with himself. His face heats up a little, and it feels like one of the only places all of these emotions can sort of pool. It feels like his heart has dropped straight through his stomach, painful but not bad—]

You don't have to... [How does he word any of the things he's thinking? There's so much at once that he just sort of trails off, fingers curling into the palm of his hand still in the air.]

Hazel. [Ugh, he's sweet... Help, he's so sweet, what does he say!!]

[Hazel shakes his head; of course he doesn't have to, but he's already here and he's doing it, so take it. Now that he's doing it, he supposes he'll touch it a little more experimentally, check out the gradient... It really does feel like an ordinary reptile, but warm?? And man-sized?

He's frowning, but it's in concentration more than anything else.]

...Look, nothin's happenin' to me, so ya can't possibly be cursed.

[For this, he will say dumb things just for the sake of the mood, because "if I saw this first, we wouldn't have gotten this far" might be kind of rude. He's had time to reflect on that aspect of his personality, thankfully.]

[That's the dumbest, sweetest thing... All at once, he laughs a breathy, single laugh and his surprise melts away into a smile. In the end, he still has Hazel, and he's accepted by him, too. What a lucky thing this is.

He reaches forward with that hand to touch Hazel's forearm lightly. He doesn't know how to express himself well enough. After a moment of just hesitating like that, he leans forward, almost hugging Hazel's arm here as he just leans between them like this. He's just... don't look at his face, he's so touched.]

Thank you.

[What a sentimental baby he has here... Leaning a little awkwardly like that, but that doesn't matter. He is here, they both are, and it's going to be alright.]

Just doin' my part. [His part as the good boyfriend, probably, reaching up with his other hand to rub little circles on Jae-Ha's back. He's good at being dumb, at least...]

[Ugh. He stays like this for a moment before his back starts killing him and he sits back up, holding his arms out for Hazel expectantly. Come here and hug him.]

With you by my side, I feel like I don't have to worry about anyone trying to tie me down.

[Not when there's someone looking out for him and defending him like this. Gosh.] It was hard for me to accept, and I know it's not beautiful to you or anyone else, either. I was so relieved when you accepted it despite that.

[Good gracious, the shoujo has started. Of course Hazel shifts forward into hugging him, putting his head right down on Jae-Ha's shoulder.]

It wasn't... Well, ya know what manner of life I lead. [Monster killing, and so on, his bad priest lifestyle.] Ruminatin' on that hasn't been easy, but you're the one... makin' it worthwhile.

[So there— if he can get over himself even a little thanks to Jae-Ha being there for him, surely he can overlook one lizard leg. It's really so much easier, comparatively!!]

[ He smiles still, wrapping his arms around Hazel to hold him there. Mm, yes, he knows how hard it must have been. How hard it must still be. To think that he's still saying things like this despite that, though? It warms him so much. ]

Don't leave me behind, now, alright? I need you here with me. [ He says that very quietly, and he knows it's unfair to ask when neither of them can really help with this issue, but... it feels safer to ask like this. Like it might keep him here. ]

[Yeah it's the worst!! He doesn't deserve this, having to think about serious things. How rude... But outside of his whiny child thoughts he's here, holding tight around Jae-Ha and thinking about how he can't guarantee a damn thing— but.]

I told ya, I'm not gonna leave here alone. You're comin' with me and that's that.

[Yes... he says so!! So it'll work out.]

How could we be Hot Stuff if that weren't the case? I'll follow you.

[Holding him close like this, he turns his face into Hazel enough to kiss the side of his head.] In another hour or so, I'd like to soar around briefly to clear my mind. But before I do that, we can relax here together. Did you rest enough the second time?

[How could they be Hot Stuff... that nickname has never been sillier, and yet that's the best possible thing he could have said?? Hazel laughs shortly, squeezing his arms around Jae-Ha again. Yes, they'll be Hot Stuff anywhere, anytime!! Obviously.]

I'm alright, just a lil cold here at the back end of mornin'.

[Well, it's not 5 anymore, but shh. Warm him.]

By chance, I always seem to be quite warm. Come here... Should I get us a blanket, too?

[Or is this enough? Cuddling on the porch swing. It's weird how he's so warm when he's some kind of dragon lizard, but here he is, tall and here to rub his hand down Hazel's arm to warm him up a little as he tugs him close.]

[He's pretty terrible at being a lizard... but tall and suspiciously warm is great for Hazel, who hums and settles in closer. He will get the maximum amount of cuddling out of this hour, for sure.]

This is plenty. I still can't believe you're always goin' around in that robe. [he's in that flimsy robe and he's not cold...!!!]

[It's because of his shoujo heart. Still, that comment earns a laugh from Jae-Ha, so that's already better than how he has been this entire morning.]

Oh, do you not like it? It's comfortable. I'm afraid I can't wear your pajamas and get away with it like you could do with mine.

[What a baby. Hazel has to pause to really relish the mental image of Jae-Ha trying to move around in his clothes with an amused little grin. It's funny!!]

I dunno if I'd like the robe. And I'm not sure if it counts as "gettin' away with it" unless we actually get to sleep sometime. [Just.....saying.]

What are you trying to say?

[He is innocent... As he holds Hazel close, he's sure to cuddle with as much of his body as possible. He'll warm him up.] Western clothes suit you more. Though the robe at the hot springs did look very nice on you.

Nothin'. [This is a pure moment aside from his lewd allusions, shh. But ah yes, the robe he didn't know how to tie...]

Wanna go back there soon? Maybe tomorrow, if you're up to it.

Actually, I'd like that. Could we bring more wine? [Maybe not to get totally drunk off of, again, but—] I'd like to relax as much as possible.

[No drinking games then, it's time to be responsible adults for once. Can they do it??]

Surely can. We'll make it a nice, quiet lil date night.

A quiet date night sounds so nice. [Can they do it... who knows. They'll try.] I can forget everything else when I'm with you. That's rather magical, isn't it?

[A Herculean effort to have a quiet evening!!]

I'd say it's sweet before magical. [this shoujo,] But I'm glad, either way.

[..........because,] You've been talkin' to some real class-A weird folk on the internet.

[Ah. He's just about to ask if Hazel feels any warmer when that comes up, and he glances to where his phone has settled in Hazel's lap with a hum.]

That's right, you read most of those, didn't you? [Most if not all...] It didn't help much at all, this post.

[Yeah this post was really useless, as posts go...]

It was illuminatin' in its own way. [Like, it brought out the best in so many people!! No, it was weird and pointless. Remember when he told that girl about sucking dick.........] Well, you're troubled today, so I'll give ya a pass.

[Two girls, apparently...]

Should I have told them all to stop the moment I realized nothing was changing? [He brings one of his hands up to brush some of Hazel's hair out of the way, looking to him curiously. A pass...] I ignored most of it for politeness' sake. And it seems like with people like Loki, telling them to stop does nothing.

Did a lot of it bother you?

[At least they're girls with a sense of humor...]

I wouldn't call it bothered. [Well, no, the Loki guy pisses him off by being a presumptuous fucko— but that's it, really. Probably.] But it's early, and none of 'em had anythin' worth contributin'.

[Could it be that Hazel, aggressive critic of godhood because gods don't do anything, is put off by endless streams of "I'll help" with no results?? It could be.]

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