thefarshore | heaven's bbs

It was never an issue for me from the start. I think I was always meant to be a shinki serving a god, and I was always meant for my god in particular.

But that doesn't answer the first question I guess.

When I awoke, I didn't know anything. I had no purpose or anything to return to. My god was the one to find me. It was from him that I received a purpose, a life, somewhere to go. He's the one who told me what I am. Without him, I would still be lost and useless. If I don't remember anything from my life as a human, that's fine, but to have nothing at all in any way is more horrifying than words can describe.

Not only that, but he trusts me.

He has no reason to and I would have accepted if he did not with ease, but he does anyway.

That feels like something precious.

"meant for your god?" like destiny? ... is that even real?

so you trust your god because he gave you a reason to go on... and because he gave you his trust right away... [ in a way that's similar to his situation with Makoto... ] how long have you been with your god?

[ something precious... ] ... you sound pretty fond of him.

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Who knows.

I've only been with him for a short while, so I guess it would be easy to say that I don't know what I'm talking about. But this is what I feel. I'm certain of my own emotions.

He's the most important person in my life.

Trust is how you define it. Do you trust your god as an authority, an ally, or a friend?

I'll use myself as an example. My god has a poor sense of judgement and is a bleeding heart. I don't trust him to make logical decisions in a crisis, but he has exhibited behavior that allows me to trust that he won't deceive me or cause me intentional harm.

Have you truly studied your god's behavioral patterns? Have they done anything to make you mistrust them completely? Can your god even trust you? We shinki have more power in this bond than we allow ourselves to think.

With this post, you open yourself up to those that are perhaps jealous of their god's power or resent their gods because of just a personal argument.

Treat your god like you would anyone else and you'll find your result there.

... id prefer to be left to do my own thing if im being honest...

for behavioral pattern.... he's a busybody. its nothing that warrants mistrust, and i know he means well but... it gets annoying fast sometimes. but if there was something that really made me uncomfortable, itd be that he never really asked if i wanted to or if id be okay with being his shinki.

... ive yet to see this power, though.

[ he's not even going to address whether Makoto trusts him or not... that's practically uncertain at this point. ironic that this person mentioned "personal argument" too...... it's like he knows. ] ... i dont think that will really do anything, but i guess i can give it a try

Ah. So you have a fussy god as well, do you? I can understand how that would be irritating if you're fiercely independent. We can't help our gods' personalities, unfortunately, no matter how "annoying" they can get. That's why I pick on my god from time to time.

I don't think many of us had much of a choice in the matter. I would have never chosen my god to wield me because he has not a clue about fighting anything. But I have seen what happened to shinki that go unclaimed. They have no direction, their minds start to wander, and eventually they fall.

And if you have yet to see your god's power, he either uses it very rationally or he has no idea what he's doing. Mine, personally, is the latter.

In the end, you're both just trying to make heads or tails of the situation we've all been thrown into.

... you pick on your god? isnt that mean...?

unclaimed... what do you mean by fall? do you mean they become ayakashi?

my god... he's definitely the latter too. though i think hes trying to learn more about them... he does talk about training with his sensei from time to time.

... right. but that doesnt make it less annoying.

You call it mean, I call it keeping them in check and on their toes.

The finite details of that matter belong to my god, I'm afraid. But I had to deal with the ayakashi myself.

I've had a bit of training with my god as well. So yes, all we can ask is for them to at least try.

And yes, while it is irksome, it's necessary growing pains.

...right.

... so you destroyed it?

[ try... ]

... i'll keep that in mind then.

My god didn't have the ability to destroy it. He has yet to be able to utilize me correctly. But that's neither here nor there.

Do what you will with my advice. I normally don't hand it out.

so what happened to it?

... lucky me. [ can to hear the sarcasm dripping there? ]

It was probably destroyed by a different god-shinki duo or trio or whatever.

Lucky you indeed.

[He's fluent in sarcasm, so it's easy to ignore.]

[ eloquent response from a god, coming right up ]

i threatened a guy who tried to kill her
that's trustworthy

[ omg ]

more like reckless...

... why was someone trying to kill her in the first place?

Hmm （´-`）ﾉ
I picked the god I have now so maybe it's different... but I think both are important!

I didn't get to pick my first one, though.
She was nice to me and I didn't know anyone else so I had to, you know?
But it was easy to do when she was nice to me when we first met.
She was nice and good to me and other people liked her too. So it was easy!

... did you know them before becoming their shinki?

so your trust came from kindness... that seems to be a common thing so far. i guess being stuck with a god whos nice is better than being stuck with one who isnt.

Kind of! I met him twice before but we didn't know each other very well.

Huh? Is your god mean to you? if they are, there are a lot of people who would help you, you know!

( IS HE MISUNDERSTANDING SOMETHING HERE he's worried for you, Anonyshinki. )

what made you decide to be his shinki then, if you two didnt know each other well?

[ aslkjf WORDS HARU, USE THEM ] hes not mean. i meant that in a general sense.

... but my god is... nice.

Good!

( If Anonyshinki had a bad god, Urashima'd find you and save you.... some how. Probably yell aggressively and get thrown into another duck pond, tbh. But he'd try. )

Hmmm
Well, when I met him... I didn't have a god. He was worried and asked me if I wanted to be his and when I said no, he said that was okay...
But after awhile, he asked me again... and he promised if my first one came back, he'd let me go so I wouldn't have to be a nora.
And that was really nice, you know?
He listened to me so I felt like I could really trust him.

[ ah ;__; you're so nice Urashima... yelling and being thrown into a duck pond aside. ]

... that really was nice. not pressuring you to become his shinki and then promising to let you return...

listening is important when it comes to trust.

He's really really nice.

( Urashima thinks a lot of people are kind and good but this was special. )

That's right. It's hard for us to help our gods if they won't listen to us either, you know? So it's better for everyone if we can listen to each other!

I have only known my God a couple days so I don't really know yet but I don't have any reason to not trust him, you know? He seems like a good guy, even if there seems to be a bit of a knowledge gap and age gap between us. So I've decided to trust him, simple as that really.

you were able to decide to trust him that quickly? ... what if he gives you a reason to not trust him, then? how will you respond?

I'm supposed to be his tool for fighting and all, hopefully me being assigned to him means that we'll be at least a little compatible. But I don't know, in the first place I don't know what would make me lose trust I've given, I'll just have to hope it doesn't come to that.

I just got here and I've only known mine for a couple of days so I'm not sure what he does. But he smiles warmly and has been nothing but nice to me. I don't know, as I soon as I met him I felt like everything would be fine. He might not look too impressive, compared to other people I saw at the party, but I'm sure he's a good, kind person. He seemed like the sun, and I trust the sun.

...This answer probably doesn't help. I just knew right away I trusted him.

[ ... that definitely sounds like makoto. the only difference is that haru... wasn't really feeling his kindness in the beginning. he still isn't, honestly, but he's trying to not be too cold... keyword trying. ]

... so even though he doesnt look too much like a god, you still trust him?

... no. it helped. my god is... pretty similar to yours, actually.

Yup, I do. Although it's hard to tell what gods are supposed to look like, right? Anyone can be one. They can look like kids, teenagers, adults, and even wolf dogs. They come in all shapes and sizes!

[Kaya did think that her god has this otherworldly aura despite everything, when he met him. But now that she was getting to know him, he felt more homely and silly than divine.]

Oh! How is he like?

I treat my shinki like a person.

[ ah. he... wasn't expecting Rin to reveal himself. though his response has him thinking for a moment.

"a person"... ]

... does your shinki trust you, then?

He's still at my side and we still team up and do a lot of things together.

... I'd hope that's proof enough.

Why are you asking this?

just because they stay by your side doesnt mean they trust you... not fully at least...

... trying to see my god in a different light.

Some trust is better than no trust at all.

Has your god been treating you well?

She treats me like she does every other person.

... let me guess: with kindness and respect? is that really enough to trust someone?

No. She treats me like a regular human being. Sometimes there's yelling, sometimes there's kindness, sometimes we don't even talk for a while.

I trust her because she's never lied to me about what I am to her, her shinki, and she never has treated me as a weapon.

no idea. I'll tell you when I start trusting them

[Sorry, Ayumu.]

[ at least someone else hasn't given their full trust to their new god just yet! if anything, it makes haru's initial skepticism of his own god reasonable... ]

... are you new here?

no, I've been here for a while. my old god disappeared, so the heavens gave me a new one recently

[That was without getting into that he had issues with the god/shinki dynamic to begin with.]

oh. they gave you one? ... did you even want a new god?

they were going to give me one even if I didn't

[He was not being subtle about avoiding the question.]

Since we don't have a choice, why do you assume we all trust our gods?

I hardly know mine. He's not unreasonable, but I'm not going to trust anyone immediately. Particularly not anyone in a situation like this.

i dont. everyones answers so far have told me otherwise, though.

... so you think that way too.

It's the only rational way to approach it. We don't know anyone here, so why should we trust them?

Trust is earned through keeping faith.

[ someone else with the same mindset!!! ]

something about strengthening the bond between god and shinki. my god doesnt really seem like a godly person though.

... keeping faith?

Yes, by which I mean living by the same ideals that they claim to value.

I don't want to have a strong bond with someone who hasn't yet proven himself worthy of my trust and respect.

What makes a god trustworthy that he can actually put some trust in you.

At the start I pretty much hated my god. Because of that there was a lot of hurt, on both sides.
But even when we got past that, he still did stuff that showed he didn't trust me.
It's taken a lot of time and a lot of fighting, but now it's getting better. He trusts me, and that gives me purpose and makes me actually glad to be his shinki.

So don't be afraid to tell your god how you really feel. It will take time, but it's important that you work it out together.

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