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Posted: May 2
From: Hedone


I have a sneaking suspicion I could find the answer to this by going through the archives, but let's give me the benefit of the doubt and say I want to be as accurate as possible and allow for new people's responses, or else opinions evolving over time... any shinki out there who wish they were gods? Or the reverse, gods who wish they were shinki? Why do you think you got the better and/or worse deal?

Devil's advocates welcome; I may indulge in it a bit myself.

Comments

[connivingbird]

No, I do not wish I was a shinki. I also do not think I got the better or worse of any deal. I think the only thing I find annoying about this whole situation is that we were never asked before being brought here.

[slantedcross]

It's never really been part of any pantheon's M.O. to let the mortals in on it, but that's a point.

You would have said yes, then, if they did ask?

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[purehonkproject]

I'm okay with being a shinki...? Um. I'm a little sad I died this young, but I don't like thinking about that much.

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[slantedcross]

More than fair. Do you find yourself enjoying your work, though? You said "okay," but not very enthusiastically.

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[volksdaemon]

What a warm welcome, Hedone. Devil's advocate, at your service!

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[slantedcross]

So? Start advocating, then.

[bighand]

Answer a more challenging prayer with me

[Remember when you called Kija exhausting?? He's still that.]

[slantedcross]

...and how long were you waiting for me to post to the BBS so you could ask this?

[NO SERIOUSLY DO YOU NOT HAVE HIS PHONE NUMBER. HE KNOWS YOU DO BECAUSE YOU GAVE IT TO SOMEONE ELSE.]

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[koukai_kirai]

I'm glad that I'm a god. Many of the memories I have are painful, but without them, I wouldn't be able to remember the people who brought out the best in me or know for certain that I did all that was in my power for the causes I stood for with them in life. Knowing that, and remembering them, gives me some kind of peace.

Aside from that, I'm not any good at accepting what I can't know, or at taking orders. Not great at letting go of negative feelings, either. I don't necessarily think I got a better deal, but if I were a shinki, I don't know a god that I'd wish myself on.

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[slantedcross]

So by living well, you believe you've made your suffering worthwhile? Would you feel the same if you'd been less noble, do you think?

But that second point I can't question... I identify with it quite a bit.

[reformedsinner]

Why, what a disrespectful question! Should shinki think of themselves as the same as gods, then?

[slantedcross]

Should they think of themselves as lesser than gods instead? Or superior?

Sanzo is rude, I'm sorry.

[killsthebuddha]

This is a shitty question, and you're a moron.

wouldn't be Sanzo otherwise

[slantedcross]

Should have waited for the guy to comment below you, you could have talked it out with him.

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[whereyoulead]

The fuck kind of question is that?

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[slantedcross]

Wouldn't it be more productive to talk this out with the guy who commented right before you?

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[faintsforjustice]

I'm not sure there's a better or a worse. Not having memories is a little troublesome, but this suits me, probably.

[What else can he say? He has a rather ambiguous sense that being a shinki isn't terribly different from whatever he's used to, save for the whole "surrounded by gods" part of things.]

Do you have a particular reason for asking?

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[slantedcross]

No, I don't.

[Yes, he does.]

The majority of people answering so far seem well content with their particular lot.

[disciplineking]

Such an amusing question, its like you don't even know what happens.

Gods can force shinki to take names. Gods can turn shinki into weapons and use them as tools and not have to respect their powers, gods can trample over shinki territory and let them be injured as they please.

Gods can sense the emotions of their shinki and what they are up to. Gods even have memories of both their own and their shinki but don't have any obligation to tell any of that information.

And you have the gall to come here and say you don't know who has the worst deal.

I don't care about being a god. I just wish to bite them all to death.

[slantedcross]

You seem to be in the minority. Everyone else so far is confused by the question, but largely happy with their lot.

Unless they're lying, some of the more vocally confused might be lying.

[sanzohoshi]

Well, if I could switch places with a shinki, I'd probably do so so they could get all their memories back.

[and by "a shinki" she means a particular one]

(ノ_<。) Shinki really get the worst end of this, I feel bad. I'd give up my godhood to help.

[slantedcross]

That is an extraordinarily unique answer. You are extraordinary.

You find godhood burdensome?

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[theunluckygirl]

[She's sewing, so her hands are too full to bother with typing (she's not a fan anyhow), but she doesn't look up as she speaks]

Are there many shinki who are alright with staying the way they are? I... Don't mind a lot of what comes with being a shinki, but... [She trails off, chewing on her bottom lip anxious before she continues]

But I'd like to know why I act the way I do, or why I have the feelings I do about things. It's easy to just not think about it, but it's frustrating, a little, that we can't think about it either.

[She speaks softly, uncertainly, because, well, it doesn't seem like something she should be saying out loud in the first place]

Video; always welcome

[slantedcross]

It can be a little confusing to navigate the world when you can't read your own compass, is that it?

[Now this, see, this actually strikes at the reason he asked this question: what it's like to live with the memory loss.]

Well, among my shinki delegation here, I have largely content, wondering why I'm asking such a stupid question, and harassing me to do more ayakashi-fighting with him.

And one who wants to bite us all.

[papas_bunnydoll]

Tot would rather be herself.

[slantedcross]

[But who is herself? After what that bastard did to Asuka--]

Can you only be yourself as a god, though?

[chickshades]

id never go against my god
but itd be nice to get some damn memories back

[slantedcross]

I think that's a healthy answer. Pretty equally split between now and before. Very human.

[razzledazzles]

This is one of the ugliest things I've seen on the network yet. Isn't there something else you could be putting effort towards right now?

[slantedcross]

I could ask you how you're doing.

[And actually be interested in the answer. He hadn't commented on Jae-Ha's earlier memory post mainly because there was absolutely nothing positive that would come out of it and he didn't feel like inflicting any more negativity on him, but he actually did not want to see what would happen to Kija if something happened to Jae-Ha.]

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[vindicavi]

I don't feel that I have it any better or worse than someone else, but I don't know that I'd want to change what I am. I'd probably make a terrible shinki.

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[slantedcross]

I've gotten that one before. It seems to be a very specific mental skill set, being a shinki.

[blindfoldcode]

You're asking people if they want to be dead. Do you get that?

[slantedcross]

I do. I also get that some people take that option.

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[oneblackcat]

What kind of question is that...?

[Does he sound disturbed? Because he is.]

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[slantedcross]

[How very direct.]

It's an innocent one. I think I dredged up more than I was looking for, however.