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[ofnovalue]

From: Anonymous
Date: April 17th

I know this may seem like such a trite and of little worthy regard given all that has happened over the last several weeks, but truly, I am a fool who has allowed their thoughts to be consumed with but one thing when I should be focused on my service here. Forgive this, and my fool's heart, but I feel as if I can no longer simply let this fester in my mind.




What does it mean if the very idea of love brings naught but profound pain? The sort that makes your chest ache tremendously, and your mind to burn as if buried in embers. When the very idea of it inspires tears, and no happiness can be found?

I can find none who know this pain. Am I damaged in some way? Is my mind and heart corrupted by a sort of blight we know not of?

Comments

text | Mephistopheles

[subconmodo]

Damaged? Heck no. Love is cold, blind, foolish, and above all, overrated. Anyone who says otherwise is deluding themselves.

[cleansingstrike]

I know not what causes your very being to ache so, ser. But I would venture so far as to say that 'tis not foolish at all.

I find it commendable and brave of you to come forward as you have.

text; Xuanwu

[cloakedinruins]

There can be many reasons why you feel this way. Perhaps you had loved and lost, or you were in love but someone used your good intentions wrongly?

text;

[brynwieldr]

Are you a shinki?

text; shiro | private

[galrarm]

You're definitely not alone, or damaged.

text;

[reloves]

I'm so sorry that you feel that way.. Love can be such a beautiful, positive and inspiring thing, and I really wish everyone could feel it that way.

[ But she can definitely understand not everyone does, since she has her own issues as well. Which she will quietly sweep under the rug, thanks. ]

There's probably a reason for it though. If you're a shinki, then maybe you'll get back a memory one day that will explain to you why it feels this way.

Private; text

[hypomeneo]

Not alone and not the only one hurting.

[Alright, Waver's very concerned about one or two responses to this on top of the overall subject matter. Someone just had a relationship upgrade on a very serious level.

So this first. Yes, yes, yes no dwelling... but no ignoring either. Waver feels like Cassandra of Troy when he says not dwelling causes the falls just as easily. It's a fucking stupid thing to do denial. So... let's tug anon back to the present carefully.]

No matter the reason, it's okay to feel broken. It's okay to weep madly. When we are wounded, pain follows as we heal. When we heal, sometimes there's pain still as we reach out in the world and touch the things that have harmed us so before.

This too is natural. This too is something we need to go through on the journey. Do not be ashamed of having an honest, hurting heart.

[Ovelia... as a man in love, he thinks he recognizes the same.]

Text: Ginia | Private

[unlucky7]

[Oh. Hm. This oddly hits home in ways Ginia can understand and in other ways she can't. The curse of being a shinki. But as she's gathered from the responses, anon is a shinki too so Ginia has to try and help.]

Just because there are other things going on doesn't mean your own problems don't or can't matter. If something matters to you, it matters.

I think it's important to recognize what hurts and it's okay that things hurt. I think a lot of people hurt but we don't always see it.

But things can improve too. Things don't always have to stay painful.

text; Balor

[curruid_coinchenn]

such sentimentality is meaningless. either let it consume you or use it to strengthen you.

text; Archer

[boneofsword]

You are neither alone nor damaged in any way. It's rare to speak of this openly, and I admire your courage in doing so.

Love can bring sorrow and pain as well as happiness. Whenever we mourn the loss of a loved one. Whenever we find that loved one is not the person we believed them to be. Whenever the fate tears us apart from them for the rest of our lives. Whenever all we can do is to let them free.

Text; from Kairi

[pure_radiantics]

That sounds like heartbreak, to me. Whether it was a breakup or a loved one being taken away... it might just hurt to think about for a little while after it happened, unfortunately.

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[artificialrose]

It appears that you've received a great many answers. I'm not sure what else I could add that hasn't been said already. However, have any of them reassured you somewhat, or that there are many others who are familiar with your pain?

text/ from Cú Chulainn

[futhark]

Is that love directed somewhere? Or is it the sole concept that is "hurtful"

[ Because that sounds like an unrequired love anon and those sure can hurt ]