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From: Anonymous
Date: April 17th

I know this may seem like such a trite and of little worthy regard given all that has happened over the last several weeks, but truly, I am a fool who has allowed their thoughts to be consumed with but one thing when I should be focused on my service here. Forgive this, and my fool's heart, but I feel as if I can no longer simply let this fester in my mind.

What does it mean if the very idea of love brings naught but profound pain? The sort that makes your chest ache tremendously, and your mind to burn as if buried in embers. When the very idea of it inspires tears, and no happiness can be found?

I can find none who know this pain. Am I damaged in some way? Is my mind and heart corrupted by a sort of blight we know not of?

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[ Ah. ]

I'm sorry.

Is it your partner here?

[ He's not sure if they're a god or shinki, after all. ]

They are.

That's about as tough as it can get.

It's not a perfect solution, but... how do you feel about writing down your thoughts and feelings? Otherwise, I'd offer to lend an ear whenever you need it, but I know how hard it is to open up to strangers.

Is that not what I've done here?

True. I meant opening up to someone without the veil of anonymity.

Besides, these thoughts and feelings may crop up again in the future. Confiding in someone you know and trust--and who knows and trusts you--is important if they do.

Then tis a tragedy that such a person is who has inspired my longing heart, and the pain that came with it.

No others would I trust so much.

Fair enough.

In any case... if you'd like, I could extend my hand in friendship. You don't have to open up to me or anything, but I don't think friends are ever a bad thing to have.

Truly? Even though you know nothing about me, other than this?

Truly.

Sometimes all you need is someone to steady you. Even if it's someone you've just met.

But what of you? What gain is it to you?

Aside from maybe making a friend? Nothing. I don't always need to benefit from something to want to do it.

Even at its most innocence, there is a value exchange that comes with friendship. You would not accept a one-sided relationship.

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