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From: Ishtar
When: March 5th [frontdated]

... So I went to sleep last night, and found myself home. Went through a whole couple months, a bunch of shit happened, and then I wake up here again after it's all over. Kinda feeling jerked around a bit, but what's happened has happened.

Anyway, I've been hearing prayers from people whose relationships are in trouble lately, and if this place is going to insist I be a love goddess, then I guess I'd better do something about it. Problem is, the soulless shinki this place assigned me and I haven't been getting on at all, and considering it's been a few months since I saw him from my perspective, I don't think it'd be a good idea to try and force it.

This isn't easy to admit, but if I'm gonna do this, I need help. Would anyone be willing to help me stake out the Tokyo Museum for a few nights? There's definitely ayakashi involved, so I definitely know I shouldn't go it alone.

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You went home? Are you okay?

It's fine. It's just disorienting and I'm gonna have to work to get my momentum back here. I actually grew a lot while I was there.

... It's good to see you again, Irisviel. I couldn't remember so I couldn't really say I missed you, but... it's comforting to see you again.

[Literally confronting the regrets of your past helps with being more emotionally honest.]

I am glad to see you too, Chris.

Do you wish you were still home?

I mean, I wouldn't be lying if I didn't say I wished I could see sempai and the others again.

But... life hands you unexpected situations all the time. I don't hate being here, even if I think the reasons for getting pulled her to start are bullshit. I got to meet you, right?

Will you tell me about them?

You're so kind.

... Sure.

There's Hibiki, Miku, Kirika, Shirabe... Elfnein and one other are already here. And there's Tsubasa-sempai of course. And also old man Kazanari and Ogawa. Anyone you wanna hear about first?

Why don't you tell me more about Hibiki?

Hibiki is a dunce. But she's our dunce. She never thinks about the consequences of her actions, she's always a busy body who butts into help people whether they want to, she never does her homework, she's always yelling "Rice! Rice!" and calls me Chris-chan instead of Chris-sempai even though I'm older than her.

She's also totally in love with her best friend Miku and still calls her "her best friend" even though we can all see there's more'n that.

But she's also really brave, and I wouldn't be where I am if not for her. She saved me from someone who was bad for me, and from my own mistakes. If she hadn't reached out to me I would still be alone.

I didn't mean to type all that.

If she ever shows up here, I never said any of that, alright?!

[In Irisviel's opinion, Chris is a very kind person that's also a little standoffish at first appearances. She's happy there are people in Chris's life that care for her and hopefully they can see each other again.

And until the day Chris leaves for good, or more of her friends arrive, Irisviel will do her best to be a good friend.]

If she shows up, I never saw a thing.

She sounds like a very nice person and a good friend. I'm glad you aren't alone too.

Thanks.

She and senpai... they're the two most important to me. That's not underselling the others of course, just. They were the first people to ever reach out to me.

I'd do anything for them.

I think it's nice you have people you feel so strongly about.

What's senpai like?

... She's my best friend. Like. Of anyone, I'd say she's the closest person of all. She stopped me from making a huge mistake, and she's always looking out for me, inspiring me... I admire her so much.

She's also the first person to treat me like an equal. Even with Hibiki, there's some things she doesn't get about me, or that we don't get along with. But with Tsubasa-senpai, she'll scold me, compliment me, let me know exactly what I need to hear. It's like she always knows what I'm thinking.

I just wish I could tell her how much she means to me.

Uhm, her and everyone else. Just. Her especially. Cuz we're so close.

There's no double meaning behind that or anything!

[On her end, Irisviel smiles smugly at her phone. Chris's feelings toward her friend are charming to see and she can't help but think about her previous statement of "She's also totally in love with her best friend Miku..."

Perhaps someone else is in love and everyone knows it.]

Oh? And why can't you?

Because stuff like that is hard! I'm not good at emotional stuff! I'm the kind of person who says they appreciate someone by punching them in the shoulder and smirking.

And I'm kind of scared of what they would say.

Is it? It seemed like you have a very easy time telling me.

Are you afraid she doesn't feel as strongly about you?

You're different! You're easier to open up to! And only Elfnein and someone else are here from my world... there's not as much risk of it getting back to them.

And hey! I said I was worried about saying that to everyone! Not just senpai!

Edited 2018-12-05 01:35 (UTC)

...

But maybe you're right.

I'm so happy you find it easy to talk to me. Please know I appreciate your honesty and I also appreciate you not hitting me in the shoulder. I think I would bruise easily.

[When the private message comes in, awww, Chris.]

I think if there was someone I was always looking out for, and stopped from making a mistake, and treated like an equal, and always told them what they needed to hear...

I think I would want to know how they felt about me. It would mean very much to me.

You'd think that. But... I'm the reason why someone important to her died. She's never blamed me for it, and I didn't cause it directly, but that's still something that happened.

And besides. I'm pretty certain she's closer to someone else on our team.

If she doesn't blame you for it, then you can't use it as a reason to not say anything, can you?

But that is a little trickier. I understand if you don't want to hurt anyone's feelings or complicate things, but you should be able to be honest about your feelings too. It's not as if you're demanding anything in return.

... She's not even here. It's kind of a moot point in the end.

You're making sense, but something making sense in my head doesn't mean I can convince myself. I still need time, to make sure if risking what we have in favor of something else is what I really want.

Of course.

I suppose if you go back again, you won't remember this conversation, so all I can stay is I hope things work out one way or another.

Though perhaps she will end up here. You said there were others you knew already here after all.

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