Cho Hakkai (
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BBS/Video
From: Li Tieguai
Posted: Oct 7, 2:49 PM
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[Hakkai's sitting at what looks like his kitchen table, hands folded and phone carefully propped up facing him and the wooden wall behind him. For once, he's not smiling. His expression is very neutral. He sounds slightly rehearsed.]
Good afternoon. Due to certain events, I've come to believe that there is something I need to share with you all, in the interests of honesty and transparency. I'm going to talk about some things that may be frightening or upsetting, so if you are under the age of fifteen, please ask a grown-up who you trust to watch this video first and explain it to you.
[He pauses, his eyes dropping from the camera to the screen for several seconds of silence before he looks back up.]
Still watching? Goten, Nanako, I especially mean you.
[He pauses again, for a few more seconds, and his fingers twitch slightly together.]
I have a serious criminal history. Some years ago, my lover was kidnapped by a clan of youkai known for their brutality towards captives. I pursued and attacked them in an attempt to rescue her, and, in the process, was responsible for the deaths of a majority of the clan, not limited to combatants. She did not survive.
The blood I shed was sufficient to transform me from human into youkai. [He reaches up, freeing each of three small silver cuffs from the curve of his ear in turn. His face shifts, ears lengthening and developing sharp points, green vine patterns spreading across his skin, teeth sharpening, and left eye shifting from green to a slit-pupiled yellow. His nails are long, sharp claws. He sets the jewelry down gently on the table between himself and the phone.]
After recovering from my own injuries, I turned myself in to the appropriate authorities, and received sentencing. I regret my actions, and I do not pose any public danger. However, I understand that my past crimes may cause others to be uncomfortable in my presence, and should you wish to withdraw yourself or any child for whom you are responsible from my classes, I can recommend either Lavi or Kusanagi Izumo as a substitute instructor. I will transfer any records to the instructor of your choice.
If you have any questions, I will do my best to answer them.
[He reaches for the cuffs again and fixes them back in place on his ear, appearance swiftly returning to a simulacrum of humanity, before he reaches out to shut down the video.]
Posted: Oct 7, 2:49 PM
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[Hakkai's sitting at what looks like his kitchen table, hands folded and phone carefully propped up facing him and the wooden wall behind him. For once, he's not smiling. His expression is very neutral. He sounds slightly rehearsed.]
Good afternoon. Due to certain events, I've come to believe that there is something I need to share with you all, in the interests of honesty and transparency. I'm going to talk about some things that may be frightening or upsetting, so if you are under the age of fifteen, please ask a grown-up who you trust to watch this video first and explain it to you.
[He pauses, his eyes dropping from the camera to the screen for several seconds of silence before he looks back up.]
Still watching? Goten, Nanako, I especially mean you.
[He pauses again, for a few more seconds, and his fingers twitch slightly together.]
I have a serious criminal history. Some years ago, my lover was kidnapped by a clan of youkai known for their brutality towards captives. I pursued and attacked them in an attempt to rescue her, and, in the process, was responsible for the deaths of a majority of the clan, not limited to combatants. She did not survive.
The blood I shed was sufficient to transform me from human into youkai. [He reaches up, freeing each of three small silver cuffs from the curve of his ear in turn. His face shifts, ears lengthening and developing sharp points, green vine patterns spreading across his skin, teeth sharpening, and left eye shifting from green to a slit-pupiled yellow. His nails are long, sharp claws. He sets the jewelry down gently on the table between himself and the phone.]
After recovering from my own injuries, I turned myself in to the appropriate authorities, and received sentencing. I regret my actions, and I do not pose any public danger. However, I understand that my past crimes may cause others to be uncomfortable in my presence, and should you wish to withdraw yourself or any child for whom you are responsible from my classes, I can recommend either Lavi or Kusanagi Izumo as a substitute instructor. I will transfer any records to the instructor of your choice.
If you have any questions, I will do my best to answer them.
[He reaches for the cuffs again and fixes them back in place on his ear, appearance swiftly returning to a simulacrum of humanity, before he reaches out to shut down the video.]
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I'm a little surprised by such a confession video, though. Wouldn't most people do what you did, if someone they loved was in danger? Assuming they had the ability, of course. It just doesn't seem very shocking given the circumstances...so even though I imagine the reality of it was a lot more gruesome than it sounds after the fact, why confess as though you're the criminal here?
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I'm not sure most people would do that if a loved one were in danger.
[Interesting that Komaeda thinks it's a natural response, though. He might be someone to keep an eye on.]
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Well, whether or not everyone would actually do it, I think everyone can certainly understand that kind of motivation, don't you think? The urge to protect the people who matter to us - it's just basic human impulse! And you wouldn't have hurt anyone if your lover hadn't been kidnapped in the first place, right? So acting as though the crimes you committed trying to rescue someone who should never have been taken, acting as though retaliation is as bad as the assault that provoked it...it's not really accurate, is it? I can understand wanting to take responsibility for it still not being entirely right, or for going overboard by killing those who weren't directly involved in the crime, but for the people who'd kidnap and kill an innocent person...they had it coming, didn't they?
[Komaeda thinks it's very simple. In a way that's a bit terrifying.]
Anyway, you should be proud! For something as awful as kidnapping your lover to happen, for you to kill so many to try and save them, and then for your lover to die anyway...it's hard to imagine a bleaker despair! And yet your hope was so amazing that you overcame it anyway! Your standing here at all is a triumph of hope, not something to feel guilty for!
[kOMAEDA CEASE THIS IMMEDIATELY]
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It's a good thing he's not on video. He's not sure he could have restrained himself from responding to that last sentence.
A triumph of hope...]
Yes, I suppose I was lucky, afterward. It's not a triumph I can take any credit for.
I'd prefer not to compare what I did to what was done by the youkai who kidnapped her. I'm only taking responsibility for my own actions, after all.
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[That keysmash is the result of someone landing on him. And their being too frantic (or perhaps too conscientious?) to delete it before sending.]
This is Tsumiki! I'm so sorry, Hakkai-san, Komaeda-san gets a little excited about things like this. I've restrained him though, so no need to worry! Komaeda-san just gets like this sometimes, he doesn't mean any harm, honest! So please forgive him!
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Then I suppose you can let him know I'm flattered that he seems to think I'm strong, Mikan.
Don't give him the phone back just yet, though. Perhaps a cup of tea first.
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For him, it really was a big compliment! Even if it might seem backhanded or cruel, I'm sure he didn't mean it like that.
But I do think you are strong too.
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[The topic of Hakkai's strength: also one he doesn't really want to put on the table.
He's not feeling too strong at the moment. Besides, all these conversations are unpleasantly public.]
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Anyway, please don't worry. I'll make sure Komaeda-san will behave himself! At least for this conversation. I'll make sure he says sorry too!
[She'll eventually climb her way off the poor boy and hand the phone back to him after this.]
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[Like a reasonable person, he’d never planned on commenting on something like this, but Mikan is kind of freaking him out here. Why is his goddess’s friend crazy? Why is she talking to a mass murderer? Why all of this? ]
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I'm sorry if I worried you!
Komaeda-san is a precious classmate from where I was from before. We're the only ones here from our place, so someone has to look out for him!
[SINCE CLEARLY HE ISN'T CAPABLE HIMSELF. Look what happens when he's left to his own devices. LOOK, HISOKA.]
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[ Maybe he doesn’t mean stop talking to the actual murderer and this could just be a general criticism of her approach to stopping her friend, but, no, he definitely does. ]
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And I know all the pressure points to knock someone out if it comes down to it.
(∩`ω´)⊃))
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Tsumiki-san says I should apologize for saying strange things...I suppose I'm not a very good judge of what's strange.
She also told me to tell you that I'm sorry for what happened to you and your lover, and to not talk about hope this time! Which seems strange to me...but it's not like I'm lying about it, so I don't mind saying it if it's helpful?
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It's just always been my experience that looking to the hope that any despair-filled situation brings is what helps the most. Nothing could be worse than having something terrible happen, and feeling as though it was completely meaningless and nothing good came from it at all...so I always focus on hope!
But Tsumiki-san says not everyone thinks of it that way...
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In those cases, I find a better route is to simply try to do better in the future, rather than focusing on reinterpreting the past.
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Don't discount pride. I believe it's even stronger than hope.
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To consider death so distasteful...it's rather strange to think you're too good for something you've inflicted on so many others. Does that mean you look down on those who've died?
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I'm not recommending my approach, you understand.
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