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thefarshore2018-01-24 01:23 pm
reformedsinner) wrote in thefarshore2018-01-24 01:23 pm
BBS/Video
From: Li Tieguai
Posted: Oct 7, 2:49 PM
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[Hakkai's sitting at what looks like his kitchen table, hands folded and phone carefully propped up facing him and the wooden wall behind him. For once, he's not smiling. His expression is very neutral. He sounds slightly rehearsed.]
Good afternoon. Due to certain events, I've come to believe that there is something I need to share with you all, in the interests of honesty and transparency. I'm going to talk about some things that may be frightening or upsetting, so if you are under the age of fifteen, please ask a grown-up who you trust to watch this video first and explain it to you.
[He pauses, his eyes dropping from the camera to the screen for several seconds of silence before he looks back up.]
Still watching? Goten, Nanako, I especially mean you.
[He pauses again, for a few more seconds, and his fingers twitch slightly together.]
I have a serious criminal history. Some years ago, my lover was kidnapped by a clan of youkai known for their brutality towards captives. I pursued and attacked them in an attempt to rescue her, and, in the process, was responsible for the deaths of a majority of the clan, not limited to combatants. She did not survive.
The blood I shed was sufficient to transform me from human into youkai. [He reaches up, freeing each of three small silver cuffs from the curve of his ear in turn. His face shifts, ears lengthening and developing sharp points, green vine patterns spreading across his skin, teeth sharpening, and left eye shifting from green to a slit-pupiled yellow. His nails are long, sharp claws. He sets the jewelry down gently on the table between himself and the phone.]
After recovering from my own injuries, I turned myself in to the appropriate authorities, and received sentencing. I regret my actions, and I do not pose any public danger. However, I understand that my past crimes may cause others to be uncomfortable in my presence, and should you wish to withdraw yourself or any child for whom you are responsible from my classes, I can recommend either Lavi or Kusanagi Izumo as a substitute instructor. I will transfer any records to the instructor of your choice.
If you have any questions, I will do my best to answer them.
[He reaches for the cuffs again and fixes them back in place on his ear, appearance swiftly returning to a simulacrum of humanity, before he reaches out to shut down the video.]
Posted: Oct 7, 2:49 PM
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[Hakkai's sitting at what looks like his kitchen table, hands folded and phone carefully propped up facing him and the wooden wall behind him. For once, he's not smiling. His expression is very neutral. He sounds slightly rehearsed.]
Good afternoon. Due to certain events, I've come to believe that there is something I need to share with you all, in the interests of honesty and transparency. I'm going to talk about some things that may be frightening or upsetting, so if you are under the age of fifteen, please ask a grown-up who you trust to watch this video first and explain it to you.
[He pauses, his eyes dropping from the camera to the screen for several seconds of silence before he looks back up.]
Still watching? Goten, Nanako, I especially mean you.
[He pauses again, for a few more seconds, and his fingers twitch slightly together.]
I have a serious criminal history. Some years ago, my lover was kidnapped by a clan of youkai known for their brutality towards captives. I pursued and attacked them in an attempt to rescue her, and, in the process, was responsible for the deaths of a majority of the clan, not limited to combatants. She did not survive.
The blood I shed was sufficient to transform me from human into youkai. [He reaches up, freeing each of three small silver cuffs from the curve of his ear in turn. His face shifts, ears lengthening and developing sharp points, green vine patterns spreading across his skin, teeth sharpening, and left eye shifting from green to a slit-pupiled yellow. His nails are long, sharp claws. He sets the jewelry down gently on the table between himself and the phone.]
After recovering from my own injuries, I turned myself in to the appropriate authorities, and received sentencing. I regret my actions, and I do not pose any public danger. However, I understand that my past crimes may cause others to be uncomfortable in my presence, and should you wish to withdraw yourself or any child for whom you are responsible from my classes, I can recommend either Lavi or Kusanagi Izumo as a substitute instructor. I will transfer any records to the instructor of your choice.
If you have any questions, I will do my best to answer them.
[He reaches for the cuffs again and fixes them back in place on his ear, appearance swiftly returning to a simulacrum of humanity, before he reaches out to shut down the video.]
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To say that pride is stronger than hope is not to say that pride is better than hope, is it? Strength isn't a measure of worthiness. You're the one who wants to measure hope against despair by seeing which can destroy the other, Komaeda-- not me.
And it's not only games that can be won and lost.
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Strength is the measure by which things can be accomplished. If you say pride is stronger than hope, then you believe pride can accomplish more than hope ever could, don't you?
And you're the one who compared the two in the first place. If you weren't insisting one was more worthy than the other, why did you go out of your way to declare one as stronger? There was no reason to, unless you truly believe pride is superior.
For someone says he's done terrible things, who claims to regret them...your pride is very important to you, isn't it? And so is feeling as though you're better than other people because of that pride. All of this makes your entire confession seem rather fundamentally dishonest in its sentiments. How can someone with so much meaningless pride, still sitting on their high horse even after the terrible things they've done, be believed when they make a big public show of their belated awakening of conscience?
'Due to certain events'...you didn't make this announcement because you wanted to, or because you thought people deserved to know. Something forced your hand, didn't it? And of course, if you were going to have to admit to killing hundreds, you'd want to sound as though you were sorry, and you know better now and would never do it again...
But you don't strike me as a man who's particularly ashamed of anything. In fact, you seem to be talking down to me, only a half hour or so after expressing such supposedly heartfelt regrets...for no other reason than because I admire hope, and you scorn it.
Was this entire confession just performative? Because I was giving you the benefit of the doubt, but this kind of attitude is just too suggestive.
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So I suppose it's convenient that it seems to be mutual. Please, don't bother continuing to misinterpret me. I'm afraid I've reached my limit for your games today.
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