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山崎 宗介 || Yamazaki Sōsuke ([personal profile] takenwithhim) wrote in [community profile] thefarshore2016-11-30 10:02 pm

Heaven's BBS | Text & Video ~ A Stolen Voice


Posted: May 21st
From: Sousuke Yamazaki

What are shinki?

I’ve not been here long, so I don’t know the truth. Apparently no shinki can. But I’ve experienced enough.

I don’t like it.

We’re shinki. We weren’t told anything upon our arrival. All we knew is that we’re dead and know nothing else. Other shinki probably had the same experience I did: stumble around until someone told me I had to find a god or something before something bad happened to me. We have to rely on whatever our gods tell us as the truth. We’re told we’re supposed to help our gods with their duties and wants and protect them or fight for them. We can’t exist without you; gods give us form and prevent us from fading away. We have to depend on you to survive.

So what are we to you?

I have a god. A Master. He tells me that I’m human more than I’m his shinki. I don’t know if I believe him entirely.

Not all Masters are like that, are they. Some don’t care what a shinki feels. I guess that’s not far from the truth though. After all, shinki are really nothing more than tools to gods. Gods can pick us up simply because they want something from us. Maybe you feel good having us at your side because you think we remind you of something. Maybe you want us because we’re useful to you or you like our looks or fit your fighting style or powers.

But if it doesn’t work out, if we piss our gods off or don’t please them, they’re allowed to discard us like a broken item. Gods can even cycle through us one after another until they’ve found the perfect tool to fit their current needs. And when you’re done, you can throw us away until you’re ready to use us again. Or left to wander for someone else to maybe pick up before we fade away into nothing.

And we have no choice but to come when you call us whether we want to or not. Because we’re nothing without you. We’re valuable possessions to keep close or useful but expendable objects to get the job done.

I don’t know if all gods are aware of this; I know the shinki aren’t. Gods can even steal shinki from another god without asking. Force a new name upon us and give us a new form and power. And if we’re stubborn, apparently blackmail and threats are just as effective. Or you can simply hurt us until we break or get rid of us because we’re not working as you want. Like we’re some kind of toy for your amusement.

We’re told we’re entering a partnership with our gods, but in reality, it only goes one way. We have to choose between vanishing or living as a weapon, companion, prize, tool, whatever, for a god we don’t even know.

If you’re a shinki, think about this. If you’re a god, ask yourself why you have a shinki.



[A video feed flicks on. A full moon glows yellow in the sky above, encircled by spiraling clouds. The edge of a sakura tree billows pink and gentle at one side of the screen, releasing ghost-light sakura petals into the winds that carry them away. It’s silent, some for himself to gather his thoughts, some for letting whoever’s listening to him think. Maybe it is rambling, but the experience he went through…]

So what are our rights? Does anyone want to tell me how this is supposed to work?

All of this may not be something some of you gods care about.

But the shinki should know.

[His is a quiet voice, deep like the dark waters far below the surface of the sea.]

I’m aware I’m probably a rare case; most of the gods I’ve met seem decent. Some of you say you’d never act like I’ve described or think like this towards a shinki. That we can trust you. But we don’t know you. So how can we trust you? Ultimately we have to trust our gods because we don’t know anything else. Whether you use that to your advantage or not is up to you.

It’s a disgusting feeling to know you’re powerless against someone else. I can be stolen and wielded by any god who wants me, regardless of how I feel about it. And if I don’t want that, I have to eternally stick by my Master’s side like a frightened child. We’re not free; we can’t even rely on ourselves because our powers, beyond the borderline, is useless unless directed by a god. I didn’t want this, I don’t know if any shinki does.

[A quiet breath seeps backwards above the screen and the edge of a shirt sleeve flutters into view on one side of the screen. Sousuke’s leaning against the wall beside the window, not in sight, but obviously here if someone feels like talking.]

And if any of you gods haven’t yet learned how to track or trace your shinki, you should start working on that now. Otherwise you're going to find yourself out a useful tool for a while simply because some other god wants to do something different for a change.
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Voice

[personal profile] sonofson 2016-12-01 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
[That's a lot of reading and a lot to take in. Goten blinks at for several minutes, not really sure if he understands everything Sousuke is saying but even with reading it once again. Even with all the questions that can come to mind there is one more important one especially considering he hadn't seen the other shinki in a bit.]

Sousuke! Hey...are you okay?
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Voice

[personal profile] sonofson 2016-12-01 06:45 am (UTC)(link)
I thought so...

[He's really not surprise by the answer. If anything it was expected just by the post alone. But still, Goten had to ask. There's a bit of silence as if he ponders what to say next because there's no way he can leave Sousuke alone, upset.]

I would offer to bring you some of those pink petals but it looks like you already have a bunch around you. Have you figured out a food you really like yet?

[He's trying to figure out a way to cheer the teenager up. It's small things but even if it only helps a little. If it just makes Sousuke feel a little better, then it's worth it isn't it?]

I can bring you this cool bug I found today too!
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[personal profile] sonofson 2016-12-02 02:43 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe? If not tomorrow then it's gotta be the day after. I still wanna do lots of things! Swimming would be a good way to cool off!

[His smile can be heard in his voice. He knows what Sousuke meant but that doesn't mean he can't turn it around. No scary god is going to stop him from having fun. Sousuke shouldn't let him either

But its last few words that makes Goten fall quiet. He stares at the screen for awhile, a quiet uncomfortable hum escaping him. Oh boy, he knew alright.]


Y-yeah. I couldn't do anything. I donno how but I couldn't move or anything. I thought he was a friend of yours....

[That was quickly cleared up. He wasn't a friend at all. He threaten Sousuke and Goten...couldn't do anything about it despite promising to protect the other shinki. This was someone Goten couldn't use his abnormal strength on. Someone that could hold both of them completely at his mercy with seemingly little effort. For all the strength he had what good did it do when he couldn't fight back? It wasn't fair! He really doesn't want to think about that guy. His voice tightens, cracking a bit.]

..I'm sorry Sousuke.
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[personal profile] sonofson 2016-12-02 04:53 am (UTC)(link)
Mmmm okay. I can wait for a little while then.

[He won't push him too much this time. Even with everything that has happened he still wants to hang out with Sousuke. If anything, this makes him want to a bit more. Maybe he just didn't try hard enough to protect him. It was obvious that guy wasn't going to leave Sousuke alone. Goten didn't want him getting used by him. He didn't want him getting hurt. Hearing he helped that god because of Rin and him doesn't make him feel any better. He's suppose to protect Sousuke, not help get him hurt him or working with that jerk. Goten clenches his small hands into fits as he grinds his teeth slightly]

You still shouldn't have to help him! That's not fair! There's gotta be something we can do. I don't want that guy around you. He's really bad!

[That guy was way too interested in Sousuke. What if he puts his hand on Sousuke's head and takes him to that weird room like he did to Goten? Goten still is shaken up about that despite putting his best foot forward. Snapping out of that weird room like a dream and waking up to a reality of shooting pain and his own blood drenching his clothes. It terrified him. He still doesn't understand what happened. Goten trembling a bit just thinking about it and tries to shake the memory out of his head.]

Ar-Archie already knows about that guy. I flew home after it and he patched me up...

We haven't done any shinki or god stuff still. Even after that....but I'll tell him about what you said.
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[personal profile] sonofson 2016-12-04 12:04 am (UTC)(link)
It's okay. I'll wait but I don't think you could ruin it anyway. You make it fun too, you know.

[He can at least say that with some cheer to his voice, a bit of laughing. It's hard to feel down when he thinks of the fun times he has had with Sousuke and will have in the future. Schuldig can't take that away. No way!]

Still....I wanna beat that guy up. There's gotta be a way.

[He almost seems to pout over that, letting out an annoyed hum. There's got to be away. No one is impossible to beat. Not even gods. But with them both being shinki that does make things harder it seems. Is there a way to become a god?]

Right. I'll tell him and everything. I don't like it much either but if you think it's best I'll listen. You and Rin take care to though.
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[personal profile] sonofson 2016-12-11 09:49 pm (UTC)(link)
You better keep your promise, Sousuke! I don't think your place is that hard to find.

[He chuckles a bit. He really doesn't know what temple Sousuke is at but since the older shinki already told him bits about it, it really wouldn't be too hard to find with a bird's eye view]

I'm not pouting! Just....thinking.

[He is. He really is pouting but it's not fair. He wants to protect Sousuke and everyone else too. How are you suppose to beat up someone that can hold you in place? No matter how much Goten racks his brain for a way around that power, he comes up empty. There's gotta be a way though. He's sure of it.]

That's not a bad thing though. Be careful Sousuke! I dont think that guy will like that you said all that. I'll help out anyway I can too!
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stiillllll i adore my sousuke tags

[personal profile] sonofson 2016-12-12 04:26 am (UTC)(link)
Hmm? Uh...um, not really? I'm just making a promise! Mayyyybeee~

[He knows darn well what he's doing which is evident by the bit of laughter that follows, no matter how much he tries to muffle it with his hands. But over all he does trust Sousuke. The older shinki has never given him a reason not to and Goten really does enjoy hanging out with him.

That's why he cares about Sousuke's well being too. Goten has a big heart, he doesn't want to see anyone hurt but Sousuke is high on that list too. He hasn't done anything wrong. Schuldig is just a big jerk.]


Right! I'm sure this helps, Sousuke.
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[personal profile] sonofson 2016-12-17 10:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Just don't forget okay?

[Not that Goten would really ever let him. Hanging out to together is too much fun. All the plans they've come up with and made for the future are still in full effect despite everything that has happen. It's just been a bit delay. If Goten didn't know any better, he'd guess that Sousuke was trying to give him a long boring lesson in patience. He'll respect the other's need for space...for now!

The smile is there, clear in his voice as well as he speaks. He's still worried about how Schuldig will react to this message when he sees it but it is better to get it all out in the open. They can't let someone like that run around and keep doing whatever they want. Sousuke said he would stick close to Rin so...he'd be safe, right?]


Ahuh! Just be careful okay?
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[personal profile] sonofson 2016-12-17 11:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Okay! And I will! Promise! But don't worry Sousuke! I can fly super fast now so I can get there in no time I bet! I think I sorta know where it is too cause of all those pink trees you like! I saw a castle with a whole bunch so that's gotta be it, right? Right?

[It's the bonus to being able to fly and get a bird's eye view of the land. The only reason he hasn't actually dropped in to see Sousuke or his god is because Sousuke had mentioned wanting to ask Rin or something before hand. With everything going on, Goten knew a bit better then to land in for a surprise visit but how long could he really hold out for?

Goten doesn't like running away but when it comes to Schuldig, fight or flight mode is going to will him to take to the air super fast. He learned from trying to take on the god. Until there's a way to get him by surprise or get around that weird power, Goten isn't going to pick a fight. He's scared of Schuldig for good reason.]
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[personal profile] sonofson 2016-12-18 03:30 am (UTC)(link)
[He gasps a little bit at that. How can that not be impressive?]

I think you mentioned that before but that's still hard to believe! No wonder you're together. I'm surprise you guys live in a castle and not one of those trees. A huge one!

[He laughs at that, kicking his feet just picturing it. Sousuke and his god living in a giant sakura tree with petals everywhere. The floor, the beds everything would be covered in small pink petals. If Sousuke likes sakura as much as Goten is picturing he does, then Rin must be super crazy about them! Maybe his first visit he should bring them more petals--- no they probably have a whole bunch of those. oh well, it'll have to be something sakura themed for sure!]

I never met two guys that liked flowers so much....

[He means it with good spirits, all teasing aside. It's whatever makes Sousuke and his god happy. But the next question makes him blink. He pauses thoughtfully as he ponders over the answer. His arms cross naturally over his chest.]

Mmmm...I fly around both. The other place, the near shore...no the far shore...? Uh..

[He stops for a second, muttering to himself. The near shore was were all the regular people and places were. The far shore is where they were. Right? Or was it the other way around? The terms are too easy to confuse. He shakes his head]

The regular world is really big. I've flown around the whole world before and way above the clouds. I can get really high there but it gets hard to breath so I gotta come back down. But here, where everyone lives I've tried and it sorta just loops around. It's not nearly as big as the world. Flying over the clouds here is weird 'cause any higher and i end up below them again no matter how fast I go or how many times I try!
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[personal profile] sonofson 2016-12-31 12:03 pm (UTC)(link)
That would be so awesome! Wouldn't you want to live on a cloud if you could?

[Though with clouds there's no--]

Sakura pink clouds maybe?

[He's having way too much fun with this. But it is Sousuke's fault. Everytime he's seen him, it's been around the cherry blossoms. When he meets Rin, it's probably going to be the same to. The flustered call of his name just makes him giggle more as he rocks from side to side playfully.]

Sorrrrrry Sousuke!

[He is and isn't. This is too much fun, but he doesn't want to tease the teen too much but it is hard to not picture sakura and sousuke going together so well.]

Ahuh! I can fly anywhere. I told you I got a lot better. Even better then last time.
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[personal profile] sonofson 2017-01-02 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
Underwater? Like with fish a stuff?

[But there's no sakura underwater...well he could probably have petals down there. They did talk about swimming before but then they weren't too sure if Sousuke could swim.]

I like clouds but I also like water! Fishing and swimming are a lot of fun! If I lived on a cloud I'd still come visit you if you lived underwater! We still gotta race.

[And no, he isn't sorry but he isn't going to admit it. Goten just keeps his smile, rocking from side to side a bit. Even if Sousuke takes the sakura out of his view, its too late. There have been way too many sakura-sousuke related things!

Goten blinks at bit at his last reponse, his head tilting a bit not really seeing the problem. His flying helped people...didn't it?]


Huh? Is that a bad thing?
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[personal profile] sonofson 2017-01-07 01:34 am (UTC)(link)
Duh! Unless fish can fly too! But that's why I'd come down! To fish and see you.

[Obivously Sousuke, come on. He could catch fish from the clouds with a really big fishing rod and lots of twine but that really isn't Goten's style. He enjoys the water and getting things with his own two hands. He flops back onto the grass, holding the video above him as he grins at Sousuke.]

You better not forget! I won't let you.

[No way. They have lots of other fun things to do too.]

Maybe this world doesn't know how to? I donno, I donno how to even handle it. I just fly cause its fun. It doesn't hurt nobody so I don't think its bad either

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