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[unlucky7]

From: Anonymous
Date: October 26th

Personal happiness or loyalty. Suppose choosing one comes at the cost of the other, which would you choose and why?

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text | from: Carl Adler

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I agree with the first reply to this post.

I put loyalty first, but I also want to be happy so when it's possible to choose, I'd like to do so. And in this case the largest bit of loyalty comes to our gods if we're shinki, or at least that's what it is for me, so choosing to follow a god that I like and get along with is important.

Anonymous

[unlucky7]

Have you ever been with a god you didn't like/get along with?

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Not this far, no. I've been lucky that way. The first couple ones I had didn't stick around for very long after they had named me, though, so I've still had to find someone more than once.

[unlucky7]

That's rough. Sorry.

Is your current god one of your own choosing? And are you happy with them?

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This one's lasted longer than the others, thankfully. So no need for that.

He is, yes, and he's pretty good. His area of expertise is outside of mine but we work well enough together.

[unlucky7]

That's good you two can work together despite differences.

My god's area of expertise is outside of mine, and I greatly respect what they can do, but it doesn't work for me either.

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Yeah, I'm grateful for that.

No, sometimes it doesn't. It happens, that gods and shinki don't match for various reasons. And if so, perhaps you should look for someone else.

[unlucky7]

That is what I am considering, but it is difficult. It feels like a betrayal of my current god, of my duty.

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But without a god you can properly work with, you can't properly fulfill your duty.

[unlucky7]

Do you think it'd be easier if we weren't assigned gods at the start? I know nameless shinki can't case spells and we're easy prey for ayakashi, but if we had a chance to get to know a god and choose for ourselves instead of being assigned wouldn't it be better?

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Yes and know, I think. An undead is at much bigger risk and an easier target for ayakashi, so it's pretty good to have a name while adjusting to being an amnesiac that suddenly is supposed to be a weapon to a god.

[unlucky7]

Do you ever wish you weren't a weapon to a god?

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No, not really. I was a bit doubtful at the start but if I'm going to be here I think it's better for me to be a shinki than a god. And I want to be useful.

[unlucky7]

I want to be useful too. I'm not right now. I guess that's my problem.

I don't think I'd mind being a god though.

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Yeah, then finding a god that will let you feel useful is the only option that you have.

I guess you can hope or pray, whatever you prefer, that you become one one day, then. It's not unheard of that that happens, though it's rare.

[unlucky7]

I don't think I'd mind becoming a god, but I don't know if I want to become a god. I think I'm better suited as a shinki. If I was meant to be a god, I'd be one now, right?

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Hmm. Not necessarily, otherwise shinki wouldn't turn into gods and gods wouldn't turn into shinki, ever.