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[drops_acid]

Date: July 19th
From: Anonymous


How would you define the word monster?


[A few recent conversations have gotten her thinking about certain things and she's genuinely curious about the answers she might get. Cardia is well aware that there are a few people who do know her secret and could probably guess that this is from her. But she's not brave enough to ask something like this without anonymity to hide behind.]

Comments

[drops_acid]

I suppose that is true.
There's so much going on that many of us could probably stand to make better use of our time.
I think I could learn a lot from your example.

[erogappa]

I don't know what the hell I'm doing. Don't look to me for any kind of example okay? You know you better than anyone here. If you need to have lots of friends around then have lots of friends around. We're already dead so what harm can it do?

[drops_acid]

[What harm could it do? The question is almost funny.]

It could do quite a lot of harm actually.
But I do appreciate the sentiment.
Thank you.

[erogappa]

What kind of harm? I mean, the worst you can do is kill somebody a second time right? Make them disappear or get murdered? That would suck but it's not

I mean, don't let that stop you.

[drops_acid]

Physical harm. Possibly death.
And does it matter whether the harm is done to a shinki or a god?
Or whether the person has died before?
Harming others is wrong regardless.

[erogappa]

Are we still people? I think we're more like ghosts.

[drops_acid]

Gods and shinki are still sentient beings.
They can still be hurt, still bleed, still die.
Is that very different from being alive?

[erogappa]

We don't have to eat, don't shit, and we turn into random objects to fight glowing ghost-monsters. We might not be fully dead but we're certainly not alive anymore.

[drops_acid]

So hurting someone who isn't really alive is alright?
I'm not sure I can accept that.

[erogappa]

That is NOT what I said. I said that you shouldn't stay away from people just because you are scared that you'll hurt them.

[drops_acid]

I just don't know whether I have the right to take that kind of risk.

[erogappa]

Is it your choice to make? It is your friends who are taking the risk by being around you, right? Why don't you tell them what the danger is and let them decide for themselves what they want to do?

[drops_acid]

I have tried that in the past.
Sometimes it ends poorly.
And even when it doesn't, I don't understand why anyone would take such a risk.

[erogappa]

Maybe they think being your friend is worth the risk?

[drops_acid]

I confess there is a part of me that hopes that is true.