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[sonofson]

From: Goten Son
Date: June 22 ; evening

i learned alot of stuff about shinki and blight
why do gods get blight when their shinki get blight? thats not fair
is there some way to stop that cause i wanna fight without hurting mrick

ROCKSUS you jerk how can you do that to kairy
she loves you a lot and does her best

[Voice]

[The post switches to voice a moment after because Goten isn't that good at writing but he wanted to be sure to get two gods attention. Writing was better for that right?]

Kairi is really strong and doing her best for you and everyone else you know! Shes the best exemplar ever so she should be exemplar! I don't wanna be an exemplar if she isn't one too! The exemplar thing is dumb if the best shinki is the first shinki a god gets! That's cheating!

[There's a small pause as Goten remembers something]

Oh! Oh and Roxas, Aymeric! Neither of you can get mad at Kairi! Yeah! She really helped me out a lot with that prayer and I'd be ayakashi food without her!

Comments

Voice, -> Private

[koukai_kirai]

Hmm.

[There's a little pause, as if Hijikata's giving something great and careful consideration, before he switches the connection to private.]

It does hurt when your shinki is blighted, but it's supposed to. It's a way of letting your god know something is wrong. That isn't something he'll hold against you, if he's a good god.

Was something troubling you?

Voice, -> Private

[sonofson]

[Goten hums thoughtfully]

But I don't want him to feel that! That isn't fair.

Not before...I was doing a prayer and picked up an ayakashi and got my hands blighted. Kairi said that my god would feel it and then cause she was worried, her got got stung. I just wanted to stop the ayakashi...

[One action shouldn't have that many repercussions!]

I just got Aymeric...I don't wanna lose another god.

[koukai_kirai]

...I didn't know that you'd lost your god. I'm sorry.

If you touched an ayakashi and got blighted, it wasn't an emotional problem of your own causing the blight. It's still not ideal, but at least it's easier to deal with permanently.

And everyone feels things like worry and sadness. There's no way to avoid affecting us completely, I don't think, so the important thing when it does happen is to work with your god and clear the air so you can let things go more effectively. If the stinging was a complete accident like that, there's no point feeling guilty about it.

[sonofson]

It's not your fault. It's just, Aymeric is my third god. I don't want a fourth... I wanna keep him from disappearing. He's really nice and everything but I stung him cause of the blight...

[The point of the prayer was to help Aymeric, not hurt him]

But it's hard not to feel guilty about it, Hijikata. [He's trying not to but he does feel bad. For Aymeric and Kairi.]

Has your shinki ever stung you?

[koukai_kirai]

[It must be hard, losing so many gods. Especially for a kid who seems to get attached pretty easily. Hijikata sighs, fishing out his smokes and lighter while he thinks on how to answer.]

Stinging someone isn't going to make them disappear. I know gods whose shinki have blighted them nearly badly enough to kill them, and they're still around.

Souji stings me now and then. There's something he wants sometimes, but he feels like it's not something he should be allowed to have, so when he catches himself thinking about it, he feels guilty. My other shinki worries a lot, and has a strong conscience and a bit of a difficult situation that they have to work with, so they sting me sometimes, too.

It hurts, but that's not always bad. You like training and sparring, right? When you get roughed up in sparring, it's good because you know you're pushing your limits and learning new things.

When our shinki sting us, we have something to learn from it. Even those of us who used to be human, too -- we can learn about how you struggle, and what you need help with. It can help bring us closer to you, if we learn how to listen.

[sonofson]

[Hijikata gives the best advice. He sort of understands it and it does make him feel a little better and less panicky.]

I guess so...I still dont wanna sting Aymeric but I get what you're saying. I wanna get stronger too. Next time I'll ask him to go on a prayer too instead of taking one. Then we can both learn more stuff.

Souji, your other shinki and the ducklings are lucky to have you. You sound like a really good god.

[koukai_kirai]

It's good to try not to, you just don't have to feel like it's the end of the world if you do it by accident now and then. Be careful around ayakashi, be open with your god about your feelings, work through it with him when a problem does come up.

[He takes a little drag of his cigarette, then shrugs, a bit awkwardly.]

My shinki work hard to support me. It's only right that I do what I can to look after them, too.

[He's always thought that's what a leader ought to be like, and tried his best to live up to it from the first time he got the chance to.]

[sonofson]

[There's a long pause of silence, as if Goten is slowly sucking that all in. Though soon, it breaks into a little bit of giggling. He still feels bad about everything that has happened but this...he can only picture Hijikata saying all this while in the center of a swarm of ducklings.]

Hijikata, you sound like a proud momma!

[No wonder he has so many ducklings.]

I hear you loud and clear! I don't wanna make things worse. I'll be more careful and tell Aymeric more. I think I understand more now.

[koukai_kirai]

[...Like a "pround momma"?]

[Hijikata tries hard not to make a face about that, but honestly? That's... That's definitely not a way he'd have chosen to describe himself. He frowns, though he looks more confused than disapproving, all things considered.]

Good. Keep all that in mind, and you shouldn't get in too much trouble.

[He pauses, unsure whether he should add the next part. The thought of losing his god again obviously upsets Goten. But...]

...If you do end up needing somewhere to go, you know where my shrine is. Don't hesitate to come here if you need anything.

[The ducks like him anyway.]

[sonofson]

...Thanks Hijikata. I'll remember!

[It comes out soft as he smiles. Goten really does appreciate that. He's trying his best to keep Aymeric from disappearing like his other gods. But knowing he can go to Hijikata is comforting too. Even if he loses all the gods he ever gets, he won't be alone.]

You're the best! But I wanna come by when I don't need somewhere to go too if thats okay? I haven't gotten to hang around you in awhile! Not since you showed me the ducklings and your place.

[koukai_kirai]

[Something in Hijikata's shoulders relaxes. He'd been worried that talking about it would upset Goten, but it doesn't seem to have.]

You can come by when you feel like it. I'm off hunting ayakashi in the evenings sometimes, but I'm usually around otherwise, and the ducks are always here.

[sonofson]

YEAH! I'll stop by soon then! I wanna see you again too. If you're not there I'll just wait with the ducks. Are they bigger now?

[He perks at that, much too excited to just visit Hijikata's place again.]

[koukai_kirai]

Souji and I are usually around, if we aren't out hunting for ayakashi or answering prayers.

They've gotten a lot bigger. They're close to grown, I'd think, though I don't suppose I've seen how big this sort of duck usually gets before.

[It's all... oddly domestic, in a way he'd have objected to for most of his life and somehow finds himself relishing now.]