山崎 宗介 || Yamazaki Sōsuke (
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- kairi | kingdom hearts,
- ω akihiko sanada | persona 3,
- ω freyja wion | macross delta,
- ω hazel grouse | saiyuki,
- ω ichiru kiryuu | vampire knight,
- ω kotetsu urashima | touken ranbu,
- ω masaki kurosaki | bleach,
- ω rin matsuoka | free!,
- ω sha gojyo | saiyuki,
- ω shuusei kagari | psycho-pass,
- ω sousuke yamazaki | free!,
- ω toshizou hijikata | peacemaker kuro
Heaven's BBS | Text & Video ~ A Stolen Voice
Posted: May 21st
From: Sousuke Yamazaki
What are shinki?
I’ve not been here long, so I don’t know the truth. Apparently no shinki can. But I’ve experienced enough.
I don’t like it.
We’re shinki. We weren’t told anything upon our arrival. All we knew is that we’re dead and know nothing else. Other shinki probably had the same experience I did: stumble around until someone told me I had to find a god or something before something bad happened to me. We have to rely on whatever our gods tell us as the truth. We’re told we’re supposed to help our gods with their duties and wants and protect them or fight for them. We can’t exist without you; gods give us form and prevent us from fading away. We have to depend on you to survive.
So what are we to you?
I have a god. A Master. He tells me that I’m human more than I’m his shinki. I don’t know if I believe him entirely.
Not all Masters are like that, are they. Some don’t care what a shinki feels. I guess that’s not far from the truth though. After all, shinki are really nothing more than tools to gods. Gods can pick us up simply because they want something from us. Maybe you feel good having us at your side because you think we remind you of something. Maybe you want us because we’re useful to you or you like our looks or fit your fighting style or powers.
But if it doesn’t work out, if we piss our gods off or don’t please them, they’re allowed to discard us like a broken item. Gods can even cycle through us one after another until they’ve found the perfect tool to fit their current needs. And when you’re done, you can throw us away until you’re ready to use us again. Or left to wander for someone else to maybe pick up before we fade away into nothing.
And we have no choice but to come when you call us whether we want to or not. Because we’re nothing without you. We’re valuable possessions to keep close or useful but expendable objects to get the job done.
I don’t know if all gods are aware of this; I know the shinki aren’t. Gods can even steal shinki from another god without asking. Force a new name upon us and give us a new form and power. And if we’re stubborn, apparently blackmail and threats are just as effective. Or you can simply hurt us until we break or get rid of us because we’re not working as you want. Like we’re some kind of toy for your amusement.
We’re told we’re entering a partnership with our gods, but in reality, it only goes one way. We have to choose between vanishing or living as a weapon, companion, prize, tool, whatever, for a god we don’t even know.
If you’re a shinki, think about this. If you’re a god, ask yourself why you have a shinki.

[A video feed flicks on. A full moon glows yellow in the sky above, encircled by spiraling clouds. The edge of a sakura tree billows pink and gentle at one side of the screen, releasing ghost-light sakura petals into the winds that carry them away. It’s silent, some for himself to gather his thoughts, some for letting whoever’s listening to him think. Maybe it is rambling, but the experience he went through…]
So what are our rights? Does anyone want to tell me how this is supposed to work?
All of this may not be something some of you gods care about.
But the shinki should know.
[His is a quiet voice, deep like the dark waters far below the surface of the sea.]
I’m aware I’m probably a rare case; most of the gods I’ve met seem decent. Some of you say you’d never act like I’ve described or think like this towards a shinki. That we can trust you. But we don’t know you. So how can we trust you? Ultimately we have to trust our gods because we don’t know anything else. Whether you use that to your advantage or not is up to you.
It’s a disgusting feeling to know you’re powerless against someone else. I can be stolen and wielded by any god who wants me, regardless of how I feel about it. And if I don’t want that, I have to eternally stick by my Master’s side like a frightened child. We’re not free; we can’t even rely on ourselves because our powers, beyond the borderline, is useless unless directed by a god. I didn’t want this, I don’t know if any shinki does.
[A quiet breath seeps backwards above the screen and the edge of a shirt sleeve flutters into view on one side of the screen. Sousuke’s leaning against the wall beside the window, not in sight, but obviously here if someone feels like talking.]
And if any of you gods haven’t yet learned how to track or trace your shinki, you should start working on that now. Otherwise you're going to find yourself out a useful tool for a while simply because some other god wants to do something different for a change.
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Even if it's for the better that Sousuke doesn't have to be bound to the guy anymore, the fact that something can be done so carelessly makes him angrier. He isn't even sure how to respond at first, mouth hanging open, absolutely scandalized and heart hurting for someone he's never even met. )
How... ( Throat tight, voice shaking,he could yell right now. He could yell right now but that isn't going to do any good. He wants to ask how this god could hurt more people but it's obvious, isn't it? Someone who would take advantage of another's vulnerabilities, bind them down against their will, and then so easily discard them without a second thought... why would they care about anyone else? How isn't important. What matters is the threat was made.
And again, there aren't many things Urashima doesn't like and bullies are at the top of his list but what can he do to help? A godless, nameless former shinki that can't even create a line to protect himself can't help others. So all he can muster up now is a sad, ) I'm sorry.
Will the three of you be alright? ( Him, his god, and his unkown friend. ) Will... that person come back?
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The guy who stole him has no morals to get in the way of what he wants. It’s easy to take when you don’t think the thing you’re taking has anything more than “worth” to their being. The idea that the “thing” being taken is a person only makes it worse for them. Sousuke knows he’ll never forget that feeling of being thrown away. “Released” might be the word for it, but the feeling that came with the dismissal… It’ll never completely go away. Like a stain in his mind.]
It’s not your fault. [As for the question, that’s a difficult one.] I’m not sure. There’s a lot to get over and adjust to. I know my god’s hurting as well, and my companion’s upset about it. I’m not the only one dealing with it… But the god who stole me, if he wants me, he’ll come back again unless someone stops him. [Whether that’s a new law or other gods, himself, or his own god, he doesn’t know.]