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[razzledazzles]

Posted: 1 May 2016
From: Jae-Ha

Have any shinki woken up one morning to find that they could suddenly recall something? Like a piece of their memory had been restored, as if it were never missing to begin with.

I need to know if it's a bad sign, or if anything needs to be done.

Comments

[birdstheword]

[Ah, Hajime knows this story]

It's rare but it's happen to some other shinki before. It's not bad. I donno what the memory is but I don't think its bad. Any idea how it happened though?

[moonlitknight]

[ This immediately gets his attention. ]

No.

Have you remembered something?

[razzledazzles]

So you mean they remembered one thing and were fine?

I have no idea what brought this on, no.

[razzledazzles]

Yes. Just a short memory.

[moonlitknight]

[ .... ]

What was it?

If you don't mind me asking.

[razzledazzles]

That's a secret.

[So he does mind.]

[private message | text]

[reformedsinner]

It's happened to some other shinki, yes. I don't know if it's a bad sign or not, but at least one of the other shinki it happened to disappeared.

[private message | text]

[razzledazzles]

Do you think it was related in that case?

[birdstheword]

Yep! 100%

[Private]

She was worried about it at first too but nothing happened when she told me about it. Nope. zero zilch nada! Maybe there's just something about remembering on your own? She woke up and it was almost like a dream but she knew it wasn't. It was a good memory though, and I'm happy she got to remember.

I asked around about it and nothing got anymore clear. Maybe you'll have better luck!

[moonlitknight]

[ He understands the privacy of one's memories, so he'll back off. ]

Is this the first memory you've recovered?

[ Private ]

[razzledazzles]

If I could ask, how long ago was this? I'm mostly worried it may not be an immediate thing.

[razzledazzles]

Yes, it's the only one I recall outside of showing up here. I can think back on it as many times as I'd like, but I don't feel comfortable trying to think past or around it. It seems the only thing I can safely recall.

[private message | text]

[reformedsinner]

I can't guess whether it was related or not. Not all of the ones who have remembered have disappeared.

That said... she was the only one I've seen speaking about her memories on the network before this.

[Not counting the shinki who had become a god, who Hakkai hadn't known well, but -- come to think of it -- who Hakkai also has not seen around since his message about becoming a god.]

[ Private ]

[birdstheword]

I marked it in my planner. Let's see~

It happened on April 13!

[private message | text]

[razzledazzles]

Oh.

[Hm, give him a long moment as he tries to think about that. It's fine, probably. What relation could there be? It's... he'll just pay extra attention.]

It seemed a convenient way to reach many people at once... Is that why so many are private messaging me?

[private message | text]

[reformedsinner]

[It's possibly fine! Hakkai will just be keeping a close eye on him to see if he disappears.

If not, then maybe it's just a coincidence after all. One or two people could be coincidental.]

Yes, probably!

In any case, my theory is that, since we aren't normal shinki, our memories aren't as well suppressed as the memories of normal shinki.

From what I've been told, the greatest danger would be remembering something that causes feelings of guilt or despair. Even if the memories don't have a negative effect on you, those feelings could still blight you and your god.

[ Private ]

[razzledazzles]

So just around two and a half weeks. I wonder if a problem could still arise, or if that's enough to be called safe.

[moonlitknight]

[ That detail sounds familiar. ]

You aren't the first shinki to recover a memory. I thought it was an anomaly the last time, but now I'm not so sure.

[ Private ]

[birdstheword]

I don't think a problem came up. She was really happy about it. I get why you're worried though!

She's not here anymore so she can't really ease your worries though. She poofed.

[private message | text]

[razzledazzles]

[Thanks Hakkai...]

That does make sense. How, exactly, are we different from normal shinki? This isn't something that was ever explained to me.

And as for blight... It was a horrible memory, but I haven't caused any yet. I hope that means I can control my emotions well enough. I wonder if I should continue to check on him.

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[eternalshield]

Are you scared? Do you want Zeno to come cheer you up?

[razzledazzles]

Who was it, if I can ask?

[ Private ]

[razzledazzles]

That's alarming in itself. Which day did she disappear?

[private message | text]

[reformedsinner]

We keep our names. Our real names, as far as I can tell. Have you noticed, with shinki like Yukine or Kazuma, that the first character of the name they're called is the same as the name they're called as a weapon?

It's because their entire name comes from their god. To remember our real names and keep them even if we move from god to god... that's very unusual.

You can check for blight on your own body, as well, if you're concerned. It often seems to appear near the back of your neck, but it's possible for it to be anywhere. Use a mirror.

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[razzledazzles]

[He might be a little afraid of certain things, maybe.]

I'm fine, Zeno, thanks. So long as I don't think beyond what's already there, that alarming feeling of "I shouldn't" isn't there at all.