[Damn it. He... isn't good at this sort of thing. Even his Conductor is never directly linked to him like this. But the discomfort is growing worse, and he knows there's already blight creeping down his neck, and if it continues...]
You aren't alone, Nageki-kun.
If you're feeling up to it, please come to my room. I would like to talk. If talking is not what you want, I'll be happy to find another means of helping.
Please do take care of yourself, and find someone that may be able to help you more than I can. I may not be able to do anything, but I would prefer not to remain blighted for too long.
I will not have you stop feeling things. That is impossible, and a world with only positive or no reactions at all would be a boring one. But if I cannot help you overcome what is bothering you, I will shoulder it while you find someone that can.
Humans, from my experience, do not handle well what they do not understand. Where I'm from, mental illness is treated almost as if you have the plague.
But if your friends already understand you, I doubt they would hate you. They already like you. They aren't going to change their opinion just because you're actually a bird. And I doubt anyone else here would hate you for that reason, either.
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i don't know.
i thought you should be aware
that something like this happened.
[He's losing proper grammar...]
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You aren't alone, Nageki-kun.
If you're feeling up to it, please come to my room. I would like to talk. If talking is not what you want, I'll be happy to find another means of helping.
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I have no choice as to whether or not you'll help me, then.
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[Read more along the lines of "I don't trust you at all."]
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[He'll just deal with the blight for the time being.]
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[You should probably tell him about that at some point, though.]]
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Please do take care of yourself, and find someone that may be able to help you more than I can. I may not be able to do anything, but I would prefer not to remain blighted for too long.
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[An intelligent response from an intelligent dove.]
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If a shinki feels negatively about something, it can cause blight in their god. Blight can be deadly if it spreads enough.
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And my reactions can kill you.
[That's an absurd amount of power tied to something like feelings]
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I will not have you stop feeling things. That is impossible, and a world with only positive or no reactions at all would be a boring one. But if I cannot help you overcome what is bothering you, I will shoulder it while you find someone that can.
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But I understand that I shouldn't ask for an explanation.
I remembered a massacre.
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A massacre?
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[He's not sure this is going to make him feel better.]
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[That's a bit more difficult.]
My condolences.
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[Which... Joshua would know since he knows how Nageki died but.]
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Were you the only one?
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Of either party.
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Is it the death that bothers you the most, or the survival?
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[Take a guess.]
Humans hated us. I don't understand. My friends are human. None of them would do anything like that.
[There's a hesitant moment of vulnerability.]
Would they?
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Humans, from my experience, do not handle well what they do not understand. Where I'm from, mental illness is treated almost as if you have the plague.
But if your friends already understand you, I doubt they would hate you. They already like you. They aren't going to change their opinion just because you're actually a bird. And I doubt anyone else here would hate you for that reason, either.
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Everything seemed simple. But now all I have is questions.
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[Why isn't Sanae here for this... He could have handled this a lot better. After all, he has experience.]
I'm not sure if it's any consolation for you to know that I've been in a similar situation. I know how it feels.
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[Not the time to be a sarcastic shit, Nageki.]
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