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thefarshore2018-01-24 01:23 pm
reformedsinner) wrote in thefarshore2018-01-24 01:23 pm
BBS/Video
From: Li Tieguai
Posted: Oct 7, 2:49 PM
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[Hakkai's sitting at what looks like his kitchen table, hands folded and phone carefully propped up facing him and the wooden wall behind him. For once, he's not smiling. His expression is very neutral. He sounds slightly rehearsed.]
Good afternoon. Due to certain events, I've come to believe that there is something I need to share with you all, in the interests of honesty and transparency. I'm going to talk about some things that may be frightening or upsetting, so if you are under the age of fifteen, please ask a grown-up who you trust to watch this video first and explain it to you.
[He pauses, his eyes dropping from the camera to the screen for several seconds of silence before he looks back up.]
Still watching? Goten, Nanako, I especially mean you.
[He pauses again, for a few more seconds, and his fingers twitch slightly together.]
I have a serious criminal history. Some years ago, my lover was kidnapped by a clan of youkai known for their brutality towards captives. I pursued and attacked them in an attempt to rescue her, and, in the process, was responsible for the deaths of a majority of the clan, not limited to combatants. She did not survive.
The blood I shed was sufficient to transform me from human into youkai. [He reaches up, freeing each of three small silver cuffs from the curve of his ear in turn. His face shifts, ears lengthening and developing sharp points, green vine patterns spreading across his skin, teeth sharpening, and left eye shifting from green to a slit-pupiled yellow. His nails are long, sharp claws. He sets the jewelry down gently on the table between himself and the phone.]
After recovering from my own injuries, I turned myself in to the appropriate authorities, and received sentencing. I regret my actions, and I do not pose any public danger. However, I understand that my past crimes may cause others to be uncomfortable in my presence, and should you wish to withdraw yourself or any child for whom you are responsible from my classes, I can recommend either Lavi or Kusanagi Izumo as a substitute instructor. I will transfer any records to the instructor of your choice.
If you have any questions, I will do my best to answer them.
[He reaches for the cuffs again and fixes them back in place on his ear, appearance swiftly returning to a simulacrum of humanity, before he reaches out to shut down the video.]
Posted: Oct 7, 2:49 PM
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[Hakkai's sitting at what looks like his kitchen table, hands folded and phone carefully propped up facing him and the wooden wall behind him. For once, he's not smiling. His expression is very neutral. He sounds slightly rehearsed.]
Good afternoon. Due to certain events, I've come to believe that there is something I need to share with you all, in the interests of honesty and transparency. I'm going to talk about some things that may be frightening or upsetting, so if you are under the age of fifteen, please ask a grown-up who you trust to watch this video first and explain it to you.
[He pauses, his eyes dropping from the camera to the screen for several seconds of silence before he looks back up.]
Still watching? Goten, Nanako, I especially mean you.
[He pauses again, for a few more seconds, and his fingers twitch slightly together.]
I have a serious criminal history. Some years ago, my lover was kidnapped by a clan of youkai known for their brutality towards captives. I pursued and attacked them in an attempt to rescue her, and, in the process, was responsible for the deaths of a majority of the clan, not limited to combatants. She did not survive.
The blood I shed was sufficient to transform me from human into youkai. [He reaches up, freeing each of three small silver cuffs from the curve of his ear in turn. His face shifts, ears lengthening and developing sharp points, green vine patterns spreading across his skin, teeth sharpening, and left eye shifting from green to a slit-pupiled yellow. His nails are long, sharp claws. He sets the jewelry down gently on the table between himself and the phone.]
After recovering from my own injuries, I turned myself in to the appropriate authorities, and received sentencing. I regret my actions, and I do not pose any public danger. However, I understand that my past crimes may cause others to be uncomfortable in my presence, and should you wish to withdraw yourself or any child for whom you are responsible from my classes, I can recommend either Lavi or Kusanagi Izumo as a substitute instructor. I will transfer any records to the instructor of your choice.
If you have any questions, I will do my best to answer them.
[He reaches for the cuffs again and fixes them back in place on his ear, appearance swiftly returning to a simulacrum of humanity, before he reaches out to shut down the video.]
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[And his.]
I suppose it doesn't say anything good about me that it's harder to think about her than it is to remember what I did trying to save her.
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Do you think that it would have been better not to remember anything, that time?
No, I don't think so. It may seem illogical, but it makes some sense, in a way. And it's not like you can decide what is easier or harder to think about.
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[With so recent a reminder... at least he remembers her face now. Her real face, not the rotting skull of his nightmares or the turned back he so often recalls, as if thinking of her running ahead, running away.
He slips off his glasses and rubs the bridge of his nose before continuing.]
But I don't think it's better not to remember. My forgetfulness doesn't erase what happened, and since it did happen, I'd rather know.
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Instead... I think I would have preferred to know more, then, rather than less. I forgot that I had a new shinki, for example.
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That is.. unfortunate might be the wrong word for it but it still is one word for it.
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I'm glad that seems to have been an unusual event....
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Yeah.
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[Perhaps the two of them starting off on the wrong foot had been part of what damaged their relationship, or perhaps it would have been just as difficult without it.
There's no way to know, now.]
But thank you, D2. I appreciate your sympathy.
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You're welcome. Anything I can do, anytime, alright?
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