[Text/Public] Need Advice

[candyconsumption]

From: Anonymous
Date: August 9th


Say you are a shinki... and you have lost your god. You have waited for them to come back... but you have begun to realize, perhaps they never will return. Now, you feel empty... and lost.

But then, a god who has watched over you since you arrived here takes you in. You care about them a great deal. You want to ask if they will allow you to be their shinki...

But do you do it, if the chances are slim that they will accept? Is it best... to spare yourself the embarrassment... and pain... of being rejected? I am currently living with them... so I also fear that perhaps if I pose the question and am rejected... perhaps they will not want me to stay with them anymore. I would like to think that they are a better person than that... a kinder person... but what if I am wrong? What if I am just fooling myself into thinking otherwise... due to my own loneliness?

What would you do?

Comments

[reformedsinner]

Yes. It's happened to me and to many shinki I know.

In the worst case, should you be rejected by this god, it may be a comfort to know you will not be without one forever.

[candyconsumption]

Do you resent the fact that you were able to be paired up so easily.... without any consideration?

[reformedsinner]

Perhaps I wouldn't resent it if I had been a better shinki to the god in question.

But as it is, yes. I do.

[candyconsumption]

Then is it something to aim for, I suppose. I wouldn't wish to hold resentment against... a new god, or whoever decides who were are to be saddled with.

...But do you and your current god get along, regardless?

[reformedsinner]

That god is no longer with us. But yes -- my current partnership is more peaceful.

[It's not exactly his current god; he'd left Yuri's service by becoming a god himself, and his relationship with his new shinki is... sometimes difficult.

Mostly because of his own difficulties with the concept.

Going into specifics, of course, would give away his identity. There aren't too many gods who remember being shinki.]