fadingsunshine: (sad 2)

Private voice

[personal profile] fadingsunshine 2017-04-01 01:19 am (UTC)(link)
[Soft sobs can be heard, but she does her best to suppress them. They'd only make Lavi more concerned.]

I-I... I'm not sure but... I think I'm... I'm maybe stinging him.

I... was jealous... I didn't mean to!
fadingsunshine: (crying)

[personal profile] fadingsunshine 2017-04-01 02:11 am (UTC)(link)
[She takes a deep breath.]

I saw him hugging an old friend... And then I just stared at them from afar while they were talking. And I just felt so sad...
fadingsunshine: (sad 1)

[personal profile] fadingsunshine 2017-04-02 11:44 pm (UTC)(link)
I know! T-that's why I'm feeling guilty. It's dumb to feel like that. [She sighs.] He looked so happy. Happier than I've ever seen him. And she's so sweet and nice.

Uh, no. I... I don't know what to say about that. I'm not even sure why I'm so sad.
fadingsunshine: (sad 3)

[personal profile] fadingsunshine 2017-04-04 11:52 pm (UTC)(link)
...Yes, it's that but... What I don't understand is why I should feel sad about it. If he's happy, then it's okay even if it's not with me. I don't expect him to like me back or even wanting me to be his close friend.

You think? It's scary, though. He might laugh. Or he might be upset if I'm stinging him. [She's not sure how he feels about her since he's always so nice. She thought they got along, but after seeing him so happy, hugging someone...]
fadingsunshine: (sad 1)

[personal profile] fadingsunshine 2017-04-17 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
But... [There's almost half a minute of silence while she gapes in search of a rebuttal. She can't find anything to say because she realized it's true.] But that's not fair to him. He should spend time and be happy with whoever he likes...

I know, but I can't help but feel nervous about it.
fadingsunshine: (sad 2)

[personal profile] fadingsunshine 2017-04-19 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
[She sighs. It seems there's no way out of it.]

Ah, no! I would be so embarrassed if you came with me. I need to do this on my own, but... It's hard to even look at him without feeling bad about feeling guilty.
fadingsunshine: (surprise 2)

[personal profile] fadingsunshine 2017-04-22 06:20 pm (UTC)(link)
You know what? You're right! If I don't keep myself cheerful, I could hurt him! I'll need time to gather the courage to talk to him, but in the meantime I should stop it from getting worse!
fadingsunshine: (it's okay)

[personal profile] fadingsunshine 2017-04-25 01:46 am (UTC)(link)
It's going to be hard, but I need to do my best.

Thank you for listening to me, Lavi. I didn't mean to ruin your post with my worries.
fadingsunshine: (sad 3)

[personal profile] fadingsunshine 2017-04-25 03:02 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, same here! You seem worried for some reason if you're asking about making someone else happier. So if I can help with that or something else in any way...
fadingsunshine: (yay!)

[personal profile] fadingsunshine 2017-05-01 02:19 am (UTC)(link)
Ah, I already have! I felt so blessed! A bit embarrassed but mostly so happy.