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[He blinks at the message he's received and it's enough to have Lavi call her after he makes sure to set it into private just in case anyone tries to listen in.]

Kaya, what happened? How are you selfish?

[Soft sobs can be heard, but she does her best to suppress them. They'd only make Lavi more concerned.]

I-I... I'm not sure but... I think I'm... I'm maybe stinging him.

I... was jealous... I didn't mean to!

Shh, calm down.

[Lavi is sure to keep his voice gentle, though it's evident there's some concern that slips in.]

Why were you jealous?

[She takes a deep breath.]

I saw him hugging an old friend... And then I just stared at them from afar while they were talking. And I just felt so sad...

[Ah, so that's what it was.]

Like you said, he was hugging an old friend. If they're friends, then there's no reason for you to get upset, Kaya.

[Pot calling kettle.]

You've talked about it with him, right?

I know! T-that's why I'm feeling guilty. It's dumb to feel like that. [She sighs.] He looked so happy. Happier than I've ever seen him. And she's so sweet and nice.

Uh, no. I... I don't know what to say about that. I'm not even sure why I'm so sad.

[.........]

You've said earlier that you were jealous. It's possible that you felt jealous that he looked so happy with her instead of you.

[Lavi grows quiet, a beat, and then:]

But it might be a good idea to tell him how you feel. Even if you don't properly understand why you're sad, talking about it can help.

...Yes, it's that but... What I don't understand is why I should feel sad about it. If he's happy, then it's okay even if it's not with me. I don't expect him to like me back or even wanting me to be his close friend.

You think? It's scary, though. He might laugh. Or he might be upset if I'm stinging him. [She's not sure how he feels about her since he's always so nice. She thought they got along, but after seeing him so happy, hugging someone...]

It could be because you want him to be happy when he's with you.

[Lavi, don't make things potentially worse.]

If he's as kind as you say he is, then he would be willing to hear you out.

But... [There's almost half a minute of silence while she gapes in search of a rebuttal. She can't find anything to say because she realized it's true.] But that's not fair to him. He should spend time and be happy with whoever he likes...

I know, but I can't help but feel nervous about it.

It might not be fair, but it could be how you feel, yeah? The least you can do is talk to him.

[He hums.]

If it wasn't already odd, I would tag along with you when you talk to him, but that might make things worse. I'll be cheering you on, though.

[She sighs. It seems there's no way out of it.]

Ah, no! I would be so embarrassed if you came with me. I need to do this on my own, but... It's hard to even look at him without feeling bad about feeling guilty.

Everything will be alright, Kaya. Just keep your chin up and think happy thoughts.

You know what? You're right! If I don't keep myself cheerful, I could hurt him! I'll need time to gather the courage to talk to him, but in the meantime I should stop it from getting worse!

That's the spirit!

It's going to be hard, but I need to do my best.

Thank you for listening to me, Lavi. I didn't mean to ruin your post with my worries.

[He laughs.]

It's alright, Kaya. I'm always around if you ever need a listening ear.

Oh, same here! You seem worried for some reason if you're asking about making someone else happier. So if I can help with that or something else in any way...

Ah, don't worry about it, Kaya. [If only you could see him smile right now.] But on an off-topic, how would you feel if you were given a gift from someone you cared about?

Ah, I already have! I felt so blessed! A bit embarrassed but mostly so happy.

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