It was never an issue for me from the start. I think I was always meant to be a shinki serving a god, and I was always meant for my god in particular.
But that doesn't answer the first question I guess.
When I awoke, I didn't know anything. I had no purpose or anything to return to. My god was the one to find me. It was from him that I received a purpose, a life, somewhere to go. He's the one who told me what I am. Without him, I would still be lost and useless. If I don't remember anything from my life as a human, that's fine, but to have nothing at all in any way is more horrifying than words can describe.
Not only that, but he trusts me.
He has no reason to and I would have accepted if he did not with ease, but he does anyway.
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But that doesn't answer the first question I guess.
When I awoke, I didn't know anything. I had no purpose or anything to return to. My god was the one to find me. It was from him that I received a purpose, a life, somewhere to go. He's the one who told me what I am. Without him, I would still be lost and useless. If I don't remember anything from my life as a human, that's fine, but to have nothing at all in any way is more horrifying than words can describe.
Not only that, but he trusts me.
He has no reason to and I would have accepted if he did not with ease, but he does anyway.
That feels like something precious.