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Posted: May 14
From: Anonymous
It seems that I require advice.
Recently, I was... unable to control my emotions in my god's presence. He said something that aroused a suspicion in me, though without the truth of my memory, I cannot easily explain why. The way that he reacted to what he felt from me... now leads me to question what I assumed in that moment.
I have not been able to learn if he was blighted at all, but I suspect he may have been. It seems unlikely that he didn't cry.
I understand that damage of this sort is a risk to god and shinki when we are called on to fight together. What I ask of you, then, is this:
How am I to amend it?
[[OOC: TRIGGER WARNING, especially if your character digs at what made him suspicious and uncomfortable, for potential discussion of sexual and domestic abuse! He doesn't remember any of the abuse survivors he encountered through his work in life on a conscious level, of course, but what made him get all upset was basically misunderstanding a situation as potentially sexual and then hearing "not taking no for answer." If you'd like to reply to this post but would rather avoid some aspect of that, please let me know either in an OOC comment or on my Plurk (
cognitiveleague) what I should avoid bringing up, and I'll be happy to work with you!]]
From: Anonymous
It seems that I require advice.
Recently, I was... unable to control my emotions in my god's presence. He said something that aroused a suspicion in me, though without the truth of my memory, I cannot easily explain why. The way that he reacted to what he felt from me... now leads me to question what I assumed in that moment.
I have not been able to learn if he was blighted at all, but I suspect he may have been. It seems unlikely that he didn't cry.
I understand that damage of this sort is a risk to god and shinki when we are called on to fight together. What I ask of you, then, is this:
How am I to amend it?
[[OOC: TRIGGER WARNING, especially if your character digs at what made him suspicious and uncomfortable, for potential discussion of sexual and domestic abuse! He doesn't remember any of the abuse survivors he encountered through his work in life on a conscious level, of course, but what made him get all upset was basically misunderstanding a situation as potentially sexual and then hearing "not taking no for answer." If you'd like to reply to this post but would rather avoid some aspect of that, please let me know either in an OOC comment or on my Plurk (
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if he's blighted, there's a way to purify it. if he's stung, you can talk and explain why you feel a certain way. the worst thing to do would be to decide to not feel at all! the best thing to do is to take a step back and address those feelings when such anger or sorrow or any other negative emotion does occur. if you done so properly, it can help the next time something like that happens so it's not as bad. [ ...Or so she believes. ] emotions are beautiful things! if it hurts us gods, then so what? we're all better than that; we can work through these problems!!
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The ayakashi.
They grow strong on emotion -- on fear, on anger, on desire, on despair. To fall prey to those things...
Is that not to strengthen them? To fuel their corruption?
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all of those things are natural to feel on their own. it's not-- or rather it should not-- be a sin to be fearful or angered. animals feel those emotions, i'm sure. and even i as a god feel angry or fearful sometimes, too!
listen, you have to be okay with who you are and what you feel.
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I don't feel them. I don't feel very strong emotions at all. What I do feel is... fleeting. Easily let go.
Ordinarily.
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well, what do you think it means, that this time was different? was it just a slip of your control, or something else?
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It is... no effort, to control most things. But this came on... too suddenly to anticipate. I was... unprepared.
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You've been terribly gracious.