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thefarshore2016-10-18 04:00 pm
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Heaven's BBS | Text
Posted: 8 May 2016 08:13 AM
From: Add
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For those who were not already aware, there was an ayakashi attack on April 28th. This ayakashi was actually a shinki that had become corrupted. Some of you may have known that shinki as Axel.
On April 25th, I spoke with Axel and the conversation turned to that of our memories and our existence as shinki.
Those of us who are new gods and shinki are not the same as the natives of this world. The distinction between "outsider" gods and shinki is vague, and some have been able to change from one role to the other through unknown means. Some shinki have even recovered parts of their memory without any ill effects, and so I had some theories regarding that at the time. I theorized that the aversion to discussing our pasts was a mental blockade, but that since we are not "true" shinki, it would be possible to break past this block over time and recover our memories without suffering the same consequences that native shinki might experience.
Axel suggested that our gods may know something of our pasts. Since he was a nora with several gods to choose from, he was also the most likely candidate to be able to convince one of them to reveal something to him. He willingly volunteered to test this theory. The plan was to learn something minor from his past life to avoid any serious damage should the theory be incorrect. Obviously, the plan did not go as expected.
Unfortunately, I have no idea what, exactly, he was told. The Roxas who also goes by Artemis was the one who spoke with him when he turned, and he has decided not to share this valuable piece of information. It could be that what he learned was deemed "too much", or it could be that any information regardless of significance or detail can trigger the negative response. This change also seems to have occurred very rapidly, and it's doubtful that it would be possible to prevent this type of corruption once its set in. I have had personal experience with blight and corruption, and the "normal" process is much slower than what Axel seems to have undergone. Axel was the first of our kind to die by this method, and unlike previous shinki deaths that have occurred, he has not reemerged since. It is possible that shinki who have died from memory-induced corruption cannot be revived by the Heavens.
Due to these details, I have decided to cease any further research on recovering memories via brute force methods, and would strongly advise against any other attempts at this.
It's unfortunate what happened to Axel, but if the Heavens had distributed this information properly instead of forcing us to gather it on our own, this entire fiasco could have been avoided. That is why I am now disclosing this information fully and publicly. If there are any further questions, I will answer them to the best of my ability should no one else step forward.
If you have an issue with me because of my involvement in this, go ahead and say what you want. Hate me if it makes you feel better about yourself. I regret my actions, but regret isn't going to change the facts. Don't expect me to humour you if you feel that mindless violence will somehow bring Axel back to life. I have better things to do with my time than be anyone else's stress ball.
And just in case anyone has too short of an attention span to read all of that:
Do not under any circumstances tell a shinki about their past. If you are a shinki, don't ask about your past. If you are a god and you know something about your shinki, don't ever talk to them about it.
If a shinki learns too much there is a high likelihood they'll become rapidly corrupted by blight and turn into an ayakashi, which will in turn spread to their god(s) until the ayakashi is disposed of. So unless you want to die in a very hideous manner, don't push your luck.
From: Add
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For those who were not already aware, there was an ayakashi attack on April 28th. This ayakashi was actually a shinki that had become corrupted. Some of you may have known that shinki as Axel.
On April 25th, I spoke with Axel and the conversation turned to that of our memories and our existence as shinki.
Those of us who are new gods and shinki are not the same as the natives of this world. The distinction between "outsider" gods and shinki is vague, and some have been able to change from one role to the other through unknown means. Some shinki have even recovered parts of their memory without any ill effects, and so I had some theories regarding that at the time. I theorized that the aversion to discussing our pasts was a mental blockade, but that since we are not "true" shinki, it would be possible to break past this block over time and recover our memories without suffering the same consequences that native shinki might experience.
Axel suggested that our gods may know something of our pasts. Since he was a nora with several gods to choose from, he was also the most likely candidate to be able to convince one of them to reveal something to him. He willingly volunteered to test this theory. The plan was to learn something minor from his past life to avoid any serious damage should the theory be incorrect. Obviously, the plan did not go as expected.
Unfortunately, I have no idea what, exactly, he was told. The Roxas who also goes by Artemis was the one who spoke with him when he turned, and he has decided not to share this valuable piece of information. It could be that what he learned was deemed "too much", or it could be that any information regardless of significance or detail can trigger the negative response. This change also seems to have occurred very rapidly, and it's doubtful that it would be possible to prevent this type of corruption once its set in. I have had personal experience with blight and corruption, and the "normal" process is much slower than what Axel seems to have undergone. Axel was the first of our kind to die by this method, and unlike previous shinki deaths that have occurred, he has not reemerged since. It is possible that shinki who have died from memory-induced corruption cannot be revived by the Heavens.
Due to these details, I have decided to cease any further research on recovering memories via brute force methods, and would strongly advise against any other attempts at this.
It's unfortunate what happened to Axel, but if the Heavens had distributed this information properly instead of forcing us to gather it on our own, this entire fiasco could have been avoided. That is why I am now disclosing this information fully and publicly. If there are any further questions, I will answer them to the best of my ability should no one else step forward.
If you have an issue with me because of my involvement in this, go ahead and say what you want. Hate me if it makes you feel better about yourself. I regret my actions, but regret isn't going to change the facts. Don't expect me to humour you if you feel that mindless violence will somehow bring Axel back to life. I have better things to do with my time than be anyone else's stress ball.
And just in case anyone has too short of an attention span to read all of that:
Do not under any circumstances tell a shinki about their past. If you are a shinki, don't ask about your past. If you are a god and you know something about your shinki, don't ever talk to them about it.
If a shinki learns too much there is a high likelihood they'll become rapidly corrupted by blight and turn into an ayakashi, which will in turn spread to their god(s) until the ayakashi is disposed of. So unless you want to die in a very hideous manner, don't push your luck.
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Artemis tried to kill me.
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[He really doubts Data-Roxas would get rid of Add for this. But he's glad that Add is safe and not dying from blight.
But that last message. What? Just... What? He can hardly believe it.]
are you joking?
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It doesn't excuse my actions, but that's why I didn't tell you before. I'm sorry it took me this long to tell you the truth.
[He's a little offended Sora would think he's joking tbh...]
He stabbed me in the chest, so no. He was serious. If Apocalypse hadn't been there to intervene I doubt even Chang'e would've been able to arrive in time to stop him.
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[It’s just something he really doesn’t want to believe that Roxas actually did. He knew Roxas would be angry… But angry enough to try and kill someone?]
that would explain why he’s not picking up his phone... ugghhhhh
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Not really, unless he's already planning a second attempt on my life. If he's moping you should just let him. I sincerely doubt he feels bad about what he did.
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[Revenge missions are pointless, why get more people hurt? And he's not gonna let Roxas mope either. Once Sora is done flipping out at him, of course.]
but you can't blame him for being mad either, add.
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Do what you want. I don't want anything to do with him, so you can go ahead and pass that along to him.
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i don't think i'll need to tell him that
anyway thanks posting this, i hope it stops something like this from happening again
and for being honest with me
[Even if it took a bit.]
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There's nothing for you to thank me for. All I did was what I should have done from the start.
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i think you've change a little add. in a good way. i'm glad you're doing okay now
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Thanks. I'm glad that we're still [friends...??] on speaking terms.
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me too! [Friends.]