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[readerofthestars]

Posted: 23 April 2016
From: Nageki Fujishiro

So when I was alive I was a bird.

Private to close CR



I'd like to talk with you.

Private to Hiyoko

It's important.

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[talkbirdytome]

Of course!

[The response is automatic. But also very honest.]

You're smart and perceptive and you really care about the people around you.
But survival doesn't have a whole lot to do with being worthy.
I think the most important thing for survival is never giving up.
And dumb luck.
That's pretty important.

[But being worthy sadly does nothing. She thinks her parents were plenty worthy but that didn't stop them from being gunned down by terrorists.]

[readerofthestars]

[He thinks about that in relation to the other kids. The younger kids, for the most part.

In the end, he hadn't survived anyway. But his existence was allowed to continue. Maybe that counted for something.]

Thank you.

Luck is a pretty poor thing to count on when it comes to something like living.

[talkbirdytome]

It is kind of cynical.
But luck has probably killed and saved more people than any skill or talent.

[readerofthestars]

You're right.

It's just a matter of bad luck, then.

[That he's here. That the children died.]

[talkbirdytome]

[She can relate. Her parents were gunned down right in front of her. She and Ryouta were very lucky they survived. And then not so lucky because Shuu. ]

A lot of things are.
But you can't rely on luck to figure everything out.
That's where talent and skill come in.
They can help tip the odds in your favor.

[readerofthestars]

[That was one fucked up day for everyone involved...]

Which I suppose is how I wound up like this.

Life and death are more complicated than they seem.

[talkbirdytome]

That's for sure.
But after living here for a while I've started to think the afterlife is way more complicated.
Between missing gods, weird powers, and ayakashi it's tough to keep up.

[readerofthestars]

And about half of us don't have any memories, which only makes it harder.

[talkbirdytome]

This place does seem pretty tough on shinki.



If there was a way to go back home, would you take it?

[She's not really sure why she asked that. Without memories it's probably easier for shinki to let go of the world they came from. And if they did go back, he'd just be stuck in that library again.]

[readerofthestars]

I don't know what home is.

I don't have any attachment to this place, either.

I don't know. [But... he feels like he would. Maybe there's something left for him back there. Even after all the bloodshed.]

[talkbirdytome]

That's okay.
I think home means something different for each person.
But you'll find out what it means to you little by little.
And sorry for asking a weird question like that.
I don't even know what made me think of it.

[readerofthestars]

[It takes him a long time to answer back.]

I think I found happiness there.
I don't see another reason why I would try to continue my existence.
If that's really the case, then I'd like to at least see it again. I'd like to know what my life was like. Why I didn't just let myself disappear.

[talkbirdytome]

I hope you get to see it someday.
But in the meantime this place isn't so bad.
Let's make the best of it.

[Together. But would that make it too awkward? Probably. She erases that last word before she sends it.]

[readerofthestars]

[It probably would've cheered him a little bit.]

I'll try to keep doing that.

Have you met Mister Joshua, Miss Tosaka?

[talkbirdytome]

Nope.
Doesn't ring a bell.
Is he a friend of yours?

[readerofthestars]

He's my new god, actually. I thought you'd like to know.

[talkbirdytome]

[!!

That is very relevant to her interests.]

He is?
How are things going with him?
Is he treating you okay?

[readerofthestars]

It could be worse. He's still around.

[talkbirdytome]

That's good.

[She hopes it's good.]

But if he's ever mean to you then just let me know.
I'll teach him a lesson.

[readerofthestars]

It will be fine. Please don't worry.

[talkbirdytome]

If you say so.
Just remember my offer stands open.

[She's serious. If he's not careful, Joshua will have to face the dreaded Fist of the Irrational Teenage Girl!]

[readerofthestars]

Miss Tosaka, if you should fight my god, it might make things worse.

It wouldn't be hard for a god to demand I don't see you again.

[Be more careful, Hiyoko, is what he's saying.]

[talkbirdytome]

I wouldn't fight him for no reason.
Only if he's mean to you.

[Pfft, careful. She has no time for careful.]

[readerofthestars]

It won't help me at all to be on bad terms with him.

[talkbirdytome]

Don't worry!
As long as he's not a jerk I'm sure I could be friends with him.
You should introduce me!