[Video] When some doors close

[pure_radiantics]

From: Kairi
Date: March 2

[ Kairi sits in the shade of a tree with the Soulless Shinki temple behind her. ]

I've given it a lot of thought... and I want to ask if there are any gods out there that don't have any shinki right now.

[ She takes another deep breath. ]

I can't talk about it too much right now, but after losing my goddess, the first person I would have gone to... he's gone as well. I spent a long time weighing my options the last time this happened - maybe too long. I want to try to be decisive this time.

The first few months I was here, I hardly had a day I wasn't busy helping my god with his prayers or training with the other shinki at my temple. I miss that activity and those bonds, but I miss the impact I made in the lives of people on the Near Shore more. I'm a shinki so I can't do that as well on my own as with a god who will see me as a partner.

If there's a god who thinks that we could work well together, I'd be happy to talk with you some more.

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Re: she deserves better tbh

[pure_radiantics]

It's not so much cleaning up as... all of the dust and sand and whatever else the temple turned into, it seems to have covered up everything I had in my bedroom.

The only thing I was able to hang onto so far was my phone and the promise ring to Forrest that I wear on my toe, but everyone else... I've lost all of my reminders of everyone else. The barrette that Senri made for me, the little fish that Sanji won for me at the carnival game, the ornate dresses that Forrest bought for me...

[gentilitea]

But you haven’t lost your memory of them, have you? [ Ugh. He winces at how cheesy and sentimental that sounded.

With a sigh: ] I know that memories are a difficult subject for us shinki, but there is no reason why we cannot immortalize our loved ones in our own way.

[pure_radiantics]

That's what I was trying to do with keeping those mementos...

[ She brings her hands up around her and hugs herself a little, even though Jakob can't see it. ]

I know Senri kept a book of little flat objects to associate his memories with... maybe a diary will be easier to keep ahold of, no matter where I move to again.

[gentilitea]

[ He gets this…vague urge to place a hand on her shoulder or make some similarly trite paternal gesture like that. Ugh. Lucky that they’re on a video feed right now. ]

It…might be better that way. [ It’s said helplessly, because he can only relate on some level—having only lost a god once and thereafter subjected to memories of old times in Add’s illusory temple. It’s not like he wants for mementos. ]

Something compact, and easy to share…

[pure_radiantics]

You really think so?

[ Her smile brightens. It's not so childish or girly that Jakob would dismiss it? That's wonderful. ]

I always thought it was because Senri had more trouble remembering things than most shinki, but now I really like the idea for myself too. Maybe more of us need help remembering than I'd thought.

[gentilitea]

[ Nothing can be too girly for a man who prides himself on his knitting, after all. ]

You don’t mean to say that you need…help putting together that sort of thing, do you?

[ The reply is not meant to be condescending—though he sees immediately that it can be taken that way. With a sigh: ]

Several people coming together to contribute their own little memories…I suppose it should be a party.

[pure_radiantics]

Ah... [ Kairi chuckles fondly. ]

I was mostly just thinking that maybe I needed just as much help as Senri did, but I've always enjoyed parties where people can do activities together. Sharing happy memories could be a nice time too!

[gentilitea]

Preparations will need to be made, in that case. [ Is he going to help her arrange some kind of scrapbooking party?? Apparently. ]

Who else would you prefer to share those memories with?

1/2

[pure_radiantics]

Hmm... Raichi of course. Davesprite, if he'll come. I wish I could invite Roxas or Sora, but I know I can't. Goten and Aymeric and Leo--

2/2

[pure_radiantics]

Oh, wow... I haven't talked to Leo since everything happened.

[gentilitea]

[ It’s hard not to sober up at the mention of Roxas and Sora, though he quickly sniffs with something like disdain upon the mention of Leo. She’s rubbing elbows with that guy? ]

Hmph, I suppose you could do worse. [ His dislike of Leo is nothing personal, anyway. He’ll put up with the guy for her sake if that’s what she wants. ]

[pure_radiantics]

... Jakob, he's Forrest's father. And I haven't even- I have no idea how he's doing with all of this going on! I should at least make sure he's okay! And if I can do anything at all to help... or to find out if he's avoiding me on purpose.

It's possible I'm a bad memory.

[gentilitea]

Lord Forrest’s…? [ Now that’s different. He knows Forrest to be sane and decent—for a god—and that’s pretty hard to come by these days.

And then, Leo…he shakes his head. ]

I apologize. I had no idea…they hardly look alike. [ Or dress alike, at any rate. ]

[pure_radiantics]

Ah, sorry. I thought everyone knew that, who was friends with either of them. Forrest and I talked about it a lot, and his life as a prince.

I should go and check on him though. Let's keep in touch, okay?

[gentilitea]

[ Well that’s where she’s lost him anyway, but he’ll try to avoid saying that he’s certainly not friends with either. Instead, he just sighs.

He knows he can’t exactly help cheer her up, but… ]

Certainly. Anything you need, well… [ Huffs!! ] You know how to reach me.