Heaven's BBS | ~Video~

[takenwithhim]

From: Sousuke Yamazaki
When: Early October

[It’s rare that he posts to the BBS; Sousuke’s quiet nature and sometimes-over-focus kind of leads to that little problem. Content to dwell with his own life and his own small circle of friends and duties. But sometimes, the private life just doesn’t cut it. Especially when said private life is the entire reason for breaking his silence and going outside that small circle.

The video feed clicks on with a quiet sound, light blazing from the screen for a second until it adjusts to the scenery. It’s soon obvious he’s alone. Considering the presence of a black jacket barely resting at the peripheral of the video’s frame, it’s likely he’s holding the screen to his side. Deliberately not pointing the feed at himself. Instead, there’s a lovely shot of a quiet patch of natural garden, complete with trickling spring, breezing of clear air, and the ever-present drizzle of pink sakura petals from the surrounding grove Eros’ castle temple is renowned for.


There’s a moment of silence, semi-awkward on his end, before Sousuke finally outs with it. His tone’s calm, musing.]

Can a god and a shinki be more than god and shinki? [A measure before adding in a lower voice.] Or will it make problems between them?

[Yeah, it’s vague, he knows. The nature of god and shinki is a complex relationship. But Sousuke’s not honest enough with his softer emotions and being open to other people to outright ask the serious/embarrassing question:

What happens if you find yourself attracted to your own god?]

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[waitingforhope]

[Admittedly, Mai had some experience with holding back certain thoughts and emotions. To the point where none but her shinki could tell. Not because he could read her emotions the way she could read his, but because he'd come to know her well enough.]

[Although, speaking of...]

If it helps at all...coming from a god's perspective?

If...Trunks were to find someone special, I would rather him be happy than try to deny himself for my sake.

[takenwithhim]

[I understand you more than anyone. That's what Sousuke's god has told him in the past. Over the course of time, he's come to realize that comment is true. Initially, it annoyed him, but now, it's a comfort he can't exactly describe.

... Not that he's going to say anything about it.]

Even though you would constantly feel everything he feels for the other person?

[waitingforhope]

Even then.

[I'm not saying it would be easy...]

[Because it wouldn't. In such a hypothetical situation, it would be...complicated. On many levels. But he had been supportive of her first hints of a relationship outside their partnership, and she knew she would do whatever it took to be equally supportive of him.]

[takenwithhim]

I see.

[He hopes she won't have to deal with what they're discussing. At the very least, he and his god have similar feelings, so...

This is hypothetical, yes, but it's not an easy thing to think about. But without knowing much more into her situation, he's stuck with his own experiences.

Which he's not forthcoming with either, so moot point.]

And if he found you special?

[Yeah, he's blunt sometimes.]

[waitingforhope]

[...]

[...]

[IT"S NOT LIKE THAT--I mean...no, wait...how did this...]

[Needless to say, Mai's face turned fairly bright red. She could have served as a lighthouse on the cliff of her Temple yard, and ships for miles around could have seen her.]

T-that's...that won't happen.

[takenwithhim]

[Well he doesn’t have to look to recognize that reaction. Probably a red face and wide eyes. He’s seen it a few time son other people’s faces (Most commonly his own god’s because Rin’s kind of easy to fluster.) Sousuke leans back against the bench, face turned up to the sakura branches above.]

Do you mean that?

[waitingforhope]

Of course I do.

[She didn't sound as convincing as she would have liked.]

[But...in her mind, at least, she'd talked herself into believing it was true. For many reasons. Because it had never been like that, even in their own timeline. They had been close, yes, but as friends. Very close friends. And here...even if Trunks were to regain memories of his life, he still wouldn't know her. He was too young.]

[takenwithhim]

If you say so.

[His tone makes it obvious he doesn't believe her.

But digging at something like that is rude and he's not going to subject her to it. Still, she doesn't sound like the person to give up if she really desires something. Either friendship or availability for more.]

[waitingforhope]

I do.

[He was right about her in that sense; if she did truly desire something, she wouldn't give up.]

[...at least, that's what she had been like. A long, long time ago. Before the years and horrors of their world had worn away most of her selfishness into a kinder, more empathetic individual. One who wasn't about to let herself think of things she knew couldn't happen because of the risks involved. And not on her part.]

But we weren't talking about me. [And she would much rather not, thank you very much.] Did that help to make up your mind at all?

[takenwithhim]

[That's her call then.

Sousuke has much the same stubbornness inside; it's one of the reasons he and his god clash so much. Both of them are protective, both of them are competitive, and both of them are too stubborn to stop. There are some buckles every now and then at least. (Like this entire post and conversations spinning off it.)

He pauses at the sudden swing of topic. Back to him, hm.]

Somewhat. It's something I'll have to talk to my god about.

[waitingforhope]

Good. Talking is...good.

[It was a huge first step for some. One that not all were ready to make.]

I do wish you luck. And I hope you and your special person can find the happiness you both want.

[takenwithhim]

[It is, and he has a bad habit of not doing it enough. Rin's frustrated by it plenty of times. But... people are different.

Sousuke glances to the feed at her supportive words.]

Aa. You too. [See? Still doesn't believe her denial.] I'll think about what you said.