Heaven's BBS | ~Video~

[takenwithhim]

From: Sousuke Yamazaki
When: Early October

[It’s rare that he posts to the BBS; Sousuke’s quiet nature and sometimes-over-focus kind of leads to that little problem. Content to dwell with his own life and his own small circle of friends and duties. But sometimes, the private life just doesn’t cut it. Especially when said private life is the entire reason for breaking his silence and going outside that small circle.

The video feed clicks on with a quiet sound, light blazing from the screen for a second until it adjusts to the scenery. It’s soon obvious he’s alone. Considering the presence of a black jacket barely resting at the peripheral of the video’s frame, it’s likely he’s holding the screen to his side. Deliberately not pointing the feed at himself. Instead, there’s a lovely shot of a quiet patch of natural garden, complete with trickling spring, breezing of clear air, and the ever-present drizzle of pink sakura petals from the surrounding grove Eros’ castle temple is renowned for.


There’s a moment of silence, semi-awkward on his end, before Sousuke finally outs with it. His tone’s calm, musing.]

Can a god and a shinki be more than god and shinki? [A measure before adding in a lower voice.] Or will it make problems between them?

[Yeah, it’s vague, he knows. The nature of god and shinki is a complex relationship. But Sousuke’s not honest enough with his softer emotions and being open to other people to outright ask the serious/embarrassing question:

What happens if you find yourself attracted to your own god?]

Comments

[clothes_make_the_man]

Not being able to tell a shinki about their life isn't the same thing as being dishonest with them.

[takenwithhim]

[He hit the nail on the head quick.]

A lie for protection is still a lie.

[He doesn't "disagree" with it, since the gods have to look out for their shinki's well-being. But that doesn't mean he likes it.]

[clothes_make_the_man]

Is it a lie, though? It's well-known at this point what happens when shinki hear about the details of their lives.

'I can't tell you' isn't a lie at all. It's true. It's uncomfortable, and I don't think anyone likes it, but that doesn't make it a lie.

[takenwithhim]

[A heavy sigh, but it's in resigned agreement.]

Aa. I know the dangers.

[Uncomfortable as it is.]

[clothes_make_the_man]

If it helps at all, I'm speaking from personal experience. It's not exactly the same - Kairi isn't one of my shinki and I don't know her past to begin with - but we've managed to have a relationship even despite the potential dangers.

None of us were gods or shinki before we arrived here. We're all people first. And people have feelings. There's no shame in acting on them, as long as both of them feel the same way. That's what I think.

[takenwithhim]

I'm not worried about us feeling differently...

[No there's no risk about that. It's moving forward that's the risk. Forrest's words bring a mixture of relief and apprehension and Sousuke takes a moment before deciding to pursue it.]

You said "despite the potential dangers." You mean her memories, right?

[clothes_make_the_man]

Well, yes... and the emotional feedback to her god.

[He hasn't heard anything from Hajime about that, so he figures it's been working out well enough.]

[takenwithhim]

That's one of my main concerns. The feedback. Even moreso between a god and shinki the same god named.

[At least that's his predicament. The god-shinki-other god relationship probably has its own set of related troubles as well.]

[clothes_make_the_man]

Yes... I can only imagine how difficult that must be. But I still think it's worth trying.

[takenwithhim]

It does. I've gotten similar encouragement from others.

So I'll talk to him about it.

[clothes_make_the_man]

Good luck. I wish you both the best.

[takenwithhim]

Aa. I appreciate the advice.

[And the well wishes.]

Ja ne.