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From: Anonymous
Date: October 3rd

If you sought to kill someone, how would you do it? Would you use something subtle like poison or would you attack them face to face?

Do you think murder is wrong? Who should be the judge?

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I do not think murder is an answer to inside conflict. It may be necessary in some cases, but not in this one.

Besides we're still under Heavens jurisdiction. Their judgement overrides ours.

I was not referring to the current conflict specifically.

Is that always so? Even in our worlds?

In any world. Human life is precious, but if you're in situation when it's your life or theirs then it's justified.

The situation when you have to sacrifice one life to save others is justified as well, even if you end with blood on your hands. This is inevitable. On the other hand such judgement can't rely on emotions or beliefs, it must take all facts into account.

In short for each life you save another one is lost. Such is the way of the world.

That is so. When you refrain from making a decision, more people perish. You also cannot trust anyone; not fully, at least. You must never let your bias blind you. Husbands can kill wives; wives can kill husbands - the vows are meaningless.

I would have thought I sounded paranoid a few years ago, but now I feel I am nothing but logical. Realistic.

That's a very precise and sound way of thinking. Utterly realistic, too. However it's important to not lose sight of the bigger picture, and to not regret the choices you've made.

Regret is inevitable. I have a conscience and I have no intention of losing it. When others die - even if it is merited - I feel regret for who they might have been.

I'm talking about regret for the choices you've made and various what-if's, not regret for the lives lost.

The regret you're talking about is what makes you - and us all - still human.

I want to have less of those. I want to learn from my mistakes and make decisions that leave me proud.

But -

Yes, I have regrets like that.

...Is there a reason why you're asking?

I played a part in one death and I directly caused two others.

In that case, do you feel that it was justified?

No one can really be the judge of you, but there are times when it can be the only solution.

[Even if Gohan himself wouldn't do such a thing, but he knows there are times when it can't be helped. Then again, those people he had killed were threatening his family and his planet.]

The first, no. I did not want him to die; I thought I was saving him.

The second and third, yes. They were monsters. If I had not been part of their demises, they would have slain others. Many others.

Then you have your answer. Because people can very well easily argue that there would have still been ways to avoid it, even if you don't agree.

I do not see how it could have been avoided. I did not know then what I know now. Maybe I am a slow learner.

It might not even be you being a slow learner. People learn everything at a different pace or tend to ignore it until they can no longer run from it.

I am tired of running and hiding. I would rather face my nightmares and see them put to rest - or die trying.

Beat the shit out of them and set them on fire.

Everyone dies anyway, so what does it matter?

It matters. The lives of others matter even if they only seek to hurt others.

Why?

The universe at large certainly doesn't care.

We must be better than the universe. I do not want to live in a cold, unfeeling world, do you?

Seeing as I'm not alive and I'm stuck here regardless of what I actually want, I'm not really interested in being better than the universe.

So you are bitter.

Nothing will be bettered with that attitude.

Though I am sorry you are dead.

That's why people need to stop fooling themselves into thinking they can better things.

And we're all going to end up dead someday, anyway.

I do not think I am fooling myself. While we are alive, while we can act, we should. Otherwise we are no different from those in a crypt.

I'm not sure I could murder but...

It's a little hard to say whether it's right or wrong. Sometimes though...it seems justified.

I used to believe in justice - perhaps I still do - but in the end, a death is a death. If you are the cause of it, are you not a murderer?

Even if that is so, I cannot say I am apologetic.

Edited 2018-01-11 07:56 (UTC)

Do you mean you're not apologetic for being a murderer?

If that is what I must be named - by some - so be it.

But you had to.

[Is what it sounded like.}

Yes. To be safe, to stay alive, I did.

I don't think that's wrong.

I don't either.

But I wonder what that says about me.

That you don't think it's wrong?

That I did it and that I do not think it is wrong.

You wanted to live.

You're right. I valued my life over theirs. I couldn't wait for justice; it would likely never come.

Were they good people?

No. (If she speaks of Joffrey and Ramsay.) The first one I did not wish to die. I had no idea the outcome of my actions until he was -

The second and third, however, were absolute monsters.

I'm more likely to be direct, but even then I wouldn't kill someone without a good reason. Self-defense, protection of another... It's hard to tell whether someone should judge or not, considering the literal existence of Gods and Goddesses. Regardless of whatever they'd say though, I have to live with myself and my actions though.

Which is why I wouldn't kill lightly or casually. But if I have to, to protect myself or another, I would.

Yes, we have no choice but to live with ourselves and our actions.

I would not kill lightly or casually either. Every life has a purpose - even if that purpose is to cause ill. I think justice includes seeing the monsters of the world either chained or slain.

Some people are really good at not caring about their actions and having to live with themselves.

How would you define a monster?

I am not one of them. Sometimes I wish I was stronger, but my conscience serves a purpose.

Those without a conscience - those who use others and hurt them for their pleasure and enjoyment - are monsters.

Do you view it as strength, for those who don't care about what they do? I think it's stronger to know your flaws. To be aware, and to overcome them--to recognize and own one's actions.

Can I also ask what prompted the original question?

No. They will never understand others as I do; they will never care for them fully. I am flawed and I see no reason to hide it. Yet I feel I am improving with each day.

In my world, I have been the cause of or involved in three deaths. Three murders.

Ah. Without knowing more, and I doubt you want to go into details, there's not much else I could say. Also not my place to judge really. Some people will view even a death-dealt in self-defense as murder.

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