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[ochitashinigami]

[The man gives a cocky smile.]

Um hello, far shore, is it? [He rubs the back of his neck nervously.] I'm new. I'm afraid most of what they told me didn't make a lot of sense, but I'll catch on. I was told that meeting others would help me orient myself.

So, hello.

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[amongthethorns]

It's... not your fault.

[He's forcing the words out, glasses being set aside with a slight click. 'I thought maybe you were.' Oh you don't know how much I wish... And he can't even tell Eric. He can never tell Eric.]

I'll be fine. My Shinki can take care of me. I'm in good hands. Castiel is a good Shinki he takes excellent care of me.

[But he wishes he was in different ones which is horrible because Cas has been nothing but a model Shinki.]

I'm certain of it. I don't have the vision of you that would mean I was your God. I'm sorry. I'm sorry to be a disappointment to you, Eric.

[His own words sting and he can taste bile. Alan's throat works and he's gritting his teeth, resting a hand against his chest.]

I should go. Good luck finding your God. Perhaps we'll speak again soon.

[ochitashinigami]

[There's something about the mystery of this young man. The only thing more painful than seeing him is the thought of him leaving. Still, he tries not to let on.] You didn't disappoint me. [He is bitterly disappointed. But, not because of him. It's because he thought it might explain this feeling.] Ah... all right, see you. [He has to. He has to.]

[amongthethorns]

[Everything about this hurts. Not that there's a thing that he can do about it at all. There isn't. He's seen that look on Eric's face - dozens of times so he knows it and that makes his chest ache more.]

If you're certain.

[And there's a forced broken smile.]

Good night, Eric, and good luck. If you have any problems with your god let me know I'll speak with them.

[He's shutting the video off, closing the feed out.]/small>

[ochitashinigami]

Goodbye. [Eric's heart throbs, and he doesn't know why. This person must be his god.]