[He's forcing the words out, glasses being set aside with a slight click. 'I thought maybe you were.' Oh you don't know how much I wish... And he can't even tell Eric. He can never tell Eric.]
I'll be fine. My Shinki can take care of me. I'm in good hands. Castiel is a good Shinki he takes excellent care of me.
[But he wishes he was in different ones which is horrible because Cas has been nothing but a model Shinki.]
I'm certain of it. I don't have the vision of you that would mean I was your God. I'm sorry. I'm sorry to be a disappointment to you, Eric.
[His own words sting and he can taste bile. Alan's throat works and he's gritting his teeth, resting a hand against his chest.]
I should go. Good luck finding your God. Perhaps we'll speak again soon.
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[He's forcing the words out, glasses being set aside with a slight click. 'I thought maybe you were.' Oh you don't know how much I wish... And he can't even tell Eric. He can never tell Eric.]
I'll be fine. My Shinki can take care of me. I'm in good hands. Castiel is a good Shinki he takes excellent care of me.
[But he wishes he was in different ones which is horrible because Cas has been nothing but a model Shinki.]
I'm certain of it. I don't have the vision of you that would mean I was your God. I'm sorry. I'm sorry to be a disappointment to you, Eric.
[His own words sting and he can taste bile. Alan's throat works and he's gritting his teeth, resting a hand against his chest.]
I should go. Good luck finding your God. Perhaps we'll speak again soon.