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thefarshore2017-03-05 01:12 am
sharkmaid) wrote in thefarshore2017-03-05 01:12 am
Heaven's BBS | Video
Posted: June 21st
From: Eros
[There's a dull clicking sound in the background when the feed starts but judging by the odd lower angle and blurred image it seems this wasn't supposed to start in the first place. Upon closer inspection, and with a bit of shifting, the video focuses and reveals what definitely looks to be a young man's bare back facing the camera. He's laying down on his side in the grass, currently unmoving, but when the clicking sound starts up again he finally shifts to lazily roll over and face the feed with tired, half-lidded eyes.
No, he isn't wearing a shirt. Too hot for that. And even if it wasn't, he'd probably feel too unenergetic to put one on anyway.]
Oi... Put that away. It's too hot for this.
[said as he lifts his hand up, considers reaching over... and chooses instead to drop it atop his forehead which is currently dappled with sweat. He could go for a swim. He could grab a drink, take a cold shower. He could. But he won't.
Whoever's on the other side of the screen makes a noncommittal, almost animal like growl... before finally obliging and dropping the device in the grass so it can eventually pad over and flop down beside Rin in the afternoon shade. Is that... an ayakashi? Seems somewhat tame for one, though there's no mistaking it's features. Bear. Small. Cuddly. Definitely ayakashi. Regardless, Rin doesn't seem pressed to move much, and with a lazy, cat-like stretch he rolls his shoulders before absently wiping more sweat away from his neck and chiseled stomach with the backs of his fingertips.
Well. There's Eros in the flesh for you.]
Tsk... stupid bear. Now I can't sleep.
(( ooc: Rin ran into a bear cub ayakashi and it's made him uncharacteristically tired, lazy, and all around listless! Please help... or take the opportunity to admire. Your choice bro. ))
From: Eros
[There's a dull clicking sound in the background when the feed starts but judging by the odd lower angle and blurred image it seems this wasn't supposed to start in the first place. Upon closer inspection, and with a bit of shifting, the video focuses and reveals what definitely looks to be a young man's bare back facing the camera. He's laying down on his side in the grass, currently unmoving, but when the clicking sound starts up again he finally shifts to lazily roll over and face the feed with tired, half-lidded eyes.
No, he isn't wearing a shirt. Too hot for that. And even if it wasn't, he'd probably feel too unenergetic to put one on anyway.]
Oi... Put that away. It's too hot for this.
[said as he lifts his hand up, considers reaching over... and chooses instead to drop it atop his forehead which is currently dappled with sweat. He could go for a swim. He could grab a drink, take a cold shower. He could. But he won't.
Whoever's on the other side of the screen makes a noncommittal, almost animal like growl... before finally obliging and dropping the device in the grass so it can eventually pad over and flop down beside Rin in the afternoon shade. Is that... an ayakashi? Seems somewhat tame for one, though there's no mistaking it's features. Bear. Small. Cuddly. Definitely ayakashi. Regardless, Rin doesn't seem pressed to move much, and with a lazy, cat-like stretch he rolls his shoulders before absently wiping more sweat away from his neck and chiseled stomach with the backs of his fingertips.
Well. There's Eros in the flesh for you.]
Tsk... stupid bear. Now I can't sleep.
(( ooc: Rin ran into a bear cub ayakashi and it's made him uncharacteristically tired, lazy, and all around listless! Please help... or take the opportunity to admire. Your choice bro. ))
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They’ve usually kept their sparring and training confined to one area, typically around the front of the castle. So why not head around back and see what’s out that way. There’s plenty of space. Maybe they should set up something… like a volleyball net or another similar past time.
Sousuke arches a brow and glances up when the chin leaves his head and he gets a question instead. But simple as it is, the shinki doesn’t answer right away, only lowers his gaze and frowns slightly. Happy… He could answer so readily, but that’s not what Rin wants. And he knows Rin doesn’t want a lie either.]
Aa. I am.
[His hands unconsciously firm around Rin’s legs, holding him securely.]
I’d like to know more about things. Why we’re here and who we are. You know my thoughts on the god/shinki relationship.
[Admittedly his opinion has improved and he’s not really vitriolic about it anymore. Mostly wishes for more equality and freedom for both god and shinki, but Rin’s patience and relationship with him has definitely helped to improve Sousuke’s ideas regarding gods. He has him to thank for that.]
But… I’d be dead otherwise if it weren’t for you. You gave me a life… a good one.
[And a friend, someone he can trust and care for. What they have together isn’t perfect; nothing is. He knows Rin misses his past life as much as Sousuke can’t remember his. But they’re here together, they’ve grown together. And in truth, all pettiness and trivial issues aside, it’s hard to complain.]
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Along the other side of the castle the hedges line pathways towards more open grass, but beyond them the back gardens stretch far and wide. There's a pond he's yet to visit, he notes. The one with all the swans and the hanging wisteria trees, their overflowing, weeping branches tinting the water pink and lavender. But all of this, as new as it is... does that amount to anything for Sousuke? Is it too much, too little, nothing at all? What, he wonders, can bring him happiness?
... Or maybe he doesn't have to look far.
Rin doesn't say anything at first, only listens, and as he does he feels his heart flutter with relief and awe. A little while ago Sousuke might have given him a different answer entirely. Now this... The firmer hold isn't lost on him and he drops his gaze towards the grass as it happens. He wants to tell him everything in that moment, to answer all his questions big or small. Because even if he has a satisfying life, he knows he can make it worth so much more.]
I...
[For once, it seems, Rin is speechless. At least at first. He couldn't have done that much. Still–]
... I'm happy that you're happy.
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None of those thoughts he’d ever admit to Rin, of course. He’d probably be a jerk enough to tease him about it, hmph. But all that aside… it’s nice to walk with him like this. Even if Rin is piggybacking. Sousuke wanders his gaze over the hedges and open grass. But as nice as they are, the back gardens are far more impressive. Vast and reflective of the richness of the place, one particular area surrounding a pristine pond that reflects the swans swimming within its glassy surface and the violet trails of the weeping wisteria. It’s… it’s definitely impressive. His pace slows as he walks, taking in the scenery they don’t often see.
He knows Rin’s concerned about his happiness. After all, Rin’s not the shinki. But at the same time, Sousuke doesn’t want to be the only one happy. Rin should be too. And he knows Rin knows that as well as he does. They’re close enough after all by now. Sleeping in the same bed and all… ahem … Yeah, earlier on, he wouldn’t have answered like that. But a lot changes in several weeks. And Rin’s shown himself to be not just someone Sousuke can trust, but someone he can open up to. Someone he can call a friend.]
Hm. Cute answer. [His voice is soft and there’s obvious fondness in it, a little smile hidden below as he holds the other boy’s legs.] But your happiness isn’t just related to mine, right?
[Look, if he has to get all feelsy for a moment, you have to too. So there. Let’s hear it.]
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--cute?
Rin nearly chokes on his air at that response but it's the question afterwards that keeps him from snapping back. His happiness... Well, sure. It isn't. But-- Just what is Sousuke getting at here?
Tsk. Who is he kidding. Of course he knows what he's getting at. ... Whether or not he has the right answer for it though, well--]
I'm happy that you're happy.
[he repeats it because it's true.]
I'm happy we're alive and that we're working together to accomplish a lot of things.
[Rin pauses before suddenly his tone turns soft.]
... but I'd be lying if I told you I'm happy being away from my real home.
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He snirks a little at that almost-choke above him, but doesn’t feel like rubbing it in. Nice to surprise Rin. He turns his path and heads for the pond, keeping his pace leisurely and slow. The swans don’t need to be startled by this… weird shape coming towards them.]
You said that.
[Of course Rin knows that, but the answer, while nice, doesn’t sit all well with Sousuke. It’s trite while true, but makes him wonder what Rin’s happiness really holds to? He doesn’t want to be the sole reason for Rin’s happiness or sadness; there should be more to it than that. And he wants to know what that is.]
Together, hm…
[Yes, that is something he’s happy about as well. Even if it’s been only a couple months, being with Rin… feels nice. It makes him happy. But when the tone softens, Sousuke guesses what’s coming and slows his pace as they reach the edge of the pond. Swans still included.]
Aa… [He gazes at the water, the silence understanding between them. Rin’s home…] Nah, Rin… Tell me about your home. What was it like?
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Anyway, the scenery does help to keep him calm at least, even in a strange conversation like this.
But that--
Rin doesn't say anything at first and after switching his gaze from this way and that he gently pushes at Sousuke's shoulders, signalling he's about to hop down from his little piggyback ride. Back on his feet, he rubs at his arm and turns towards the water, towards the swans who swim closer to stare with their beady black eyes. His home, their home, our home...]
What's there to tell?
[What can he tell?]
It was... small. Quiet. To be honest, I never even stayed there long.
[Vague. He has to keep it vague. ... And yet--]
... No matter where you were, you were always close to the ocean.
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Once he’s got his back clear, he gives his shirt a small tug to put it back in order and then wanders off towards the bridge arching over the water. It’s a strange question, since Sousuke knows he reminds Rin of someone from his home. But at least he gets an answer… a vague one. He sighs and rests his forearms on the bridge’s railing, trying not to sound frustrated or dejected. Rin doesn’t want to get either of them in trouble… and he’d know, right?]
So it’s an ocean town. I guess it was some kind of fishing town then…
[He looks down at the water, watching his crystal-clear reflection.]
Why’d you leave so soon? Didn’t you like your hometown?
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Hearing Sousuke sigh breaks the illusion though and Rin bites his lip, because he knows what he's thinking. He knows his god's being vague. He knows he's holding information from him for their safety. And really, he wants to tell him more. Every detail, every memory...]
Yeah. It was.
[he pauses before adding,]
My dad was a fisherman before he passed.
[Rin soon follows after him, stepping up onto the bridge to fold his arms over the railing too and stare down at their reflections between the swans. He laughs, but only a little... It's bittersweet.]
I loved it. I still do. ... But I had dreams to follow.
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Guess it’s not just Rin that got affected by that laze-inducing bear. Wonder if some of that got on his foot after he kicked it… ewugh. It’s a distracting thought from the little ire that needles him at Rin’s vagueness. He knows Rin doesn’t want to be, but has to be in order to keep him safe. How anyone shinki’s supposed to exist in this place without thinking of their past is beyond him. He simply tries to obey the warnings in his gut when something veers towards a “bad” topic.
It’s as frustrating for Rin as it is for him. Strange to take comfort in that thought.]
So ka… Hn, your dad was a nice guy. [Sousuke rests one hand over the other, eyes lifting to the sky.] He must’ve thought the world of you.
[It makes him wonder, makes him think, and those thoughts aren’t fun. He knows he can’t remember anything and he tries not to since it’s dangerous. But… even now the feeling’s creeping into his stomach and it frustrates him that he can’t know. He’s alive, but there’s a price he’s eternally paying for it.]
And those dreams lay outside your home, didn’t they…
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Mm. You would know, wouldn't you?
[What with being possessed and all. An awkward thing to remember at a time like this (at a time like any, actually) and he clears his throat as if that will make the thought disappear.
Looking out over the pond this time, Rin's silent at first... then he laughs again.]
Actually, I found out I didn't need to look far for them. They were with me all along.
[Turning back to Sousuke, Rin smiles wide.]
I guess that's why I'm not as down as I could be in the end, even being here. As long as I know who's most important to me, it doesn't matter how far away I go.
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Hmph. I don’t know that much. He wasn’t in my head, you know.
[And Sousuke definitely wasn’t in Matsuoka-san’s. That had been an… interesting time. But the result was better than what it could have been. Sousuke regrets nothing about his choice, even if it is awkward every time he remembers it.
The change back to the other topic earns a glance to Rin’s reflection and Sousuke studies him in the water. It’s such a romantic thing to say, he’s surprised he didn’t expect it. But at the same time… he furrows his brows a little.]
Aa, but…
[Sousuke trails off as the side of his face practically warms under the beam of that brilliant smile. Whatever he’d been going to say fades away from his lips and he shakes his head lightly, a tiny smile appearing as well.]
You must have someone very important to you back home. I hope they know how lucky they are to have a friend like you.
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Especially when he isn't so sure how to answer.
It took him a long time to reach out to those important people, he knows that much. So caught up in his selfish goals, his father's dream, his times and records... Having important people didn't even exist for a time.
If only you knew... If only you knew how unfair I really was to all of you.
Rin pushes away from the railing on that note and turns back towards the castle. His smile's gone, but he isn't frowning at least.]
We should head back inside. Before that ayakashi shows up again and all that...
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Especially when the conversation turns to things like this. It’s obvious Rin holds people very close to his heart. But sometimes Sousuke wonders what else Rin keeps so close. He knows there are things his god can’t say to him and it bothers them both. This goes beyond those kinds of things. What’s bad about asking Rin about his past? Is that something in the “dangerous” category? Rin’s the only one with a past between the two of them…
But he gets nothing for it and looks to the side as Rin pushes away from the railing. For a few moments, Sousuke’s silent, watching Rin’s back as the breeze licks at the longer strands of hair at the nape of his god’s neck. He could refuse and stay out here till he’s good and ready to go inside…
Not that there’s a point to that. Sousuke lets his arms fall by his side as he backs away from the railing. Hands slide into his pockets and he heads towards the castle.]
Aa.
[Can’t have him kicking more bear cubs now can we.]