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山崎 宗介 || Yamazaki Sōsuke ([personal profile] takenwithhim) wrote in [community profile] thefarshore2016-11-30 10:02 pm

Heaven's BBS | Text & Video ~ A Stolen Voice


Posted: May 21st
From: Sousuke Yamazaki

What are shinki?

I’ve not been here long, so I don’t know the truth. Apparently no shinki can. But I’ve experienced enough.

I don’t like it.

We’re shinki. We weren’t told anything upon our arrival. All we knew is that we’re dead and know nothing else. Other shinki probably had the same experience I did: stumble around until someone told me I had to find a god or something before something bad happened to me. We have to rely on whatever our gods tell us as the truth. We’re told we’re supposed to help our gods with their duties and wants and protect them or fight for them. We can’t exist without you; gods give us form and prevent us from fading away. We have to depend on you to survive.

So what are we to you?

I have a god. A Master. He tells me that I’m human more than I’m his shinki. I don’t know if I believe him entirely.

Not all Masters are like that, are they. Some don’t care what a shinki feels. I guess that’s not far from the truth though. After all, shinki are really nothing more than tools to gods. Gods can pick us up simply because they want something from us. Maybe you feel good having us at your side because you think we remind you of something. Maybe you want us because we’re useful to you or you like our looks or fit your fighting style or powers.

But if it doesn’t work out, if we piss our gods off or don’t please them, they’re allowed to discard us like a broken item. Gods can even cycle through us one after another until they’ve found the perfect tool to fit their current needs. And when you’re done, you can throw us away until you’re ready to use us again. Or left to wander for someone else to maybe pick up before we fade away into nothing.

And we have no choice but to come when you call us whether we want to or not. Because we’re nothing without you. We’re valuable possessions to keep close or useful but expendable objects to get the job done.

I don’t know if all gods are aware of this; I know the shinki aren’t. Gods can even steal shinki from another god without asking. Force a new name upon us and give us a new form and power. And if we’re stubborn, apparently blackmail and threats are just as effective. Or you can simply hurt us until we break or get rid of us because we’re not working as you want. Like we’re some kind of toy for your amusement.

We’re told we’re entering a partnership with our gods, but in reality, it only goes one way. We have to choose between vanishing or living as a weapon, companion, prize, tool, whatever, for a god we don’t even know.

If you’re a shinki, think about this. If you’re a god, ask yourself why you have a shinki.



[A video feed flicks on. A full moon glows yellow in the sky above, encircled by spiraling clouds. The edge of a sakura tree billows pink and gentle at one side of the screen, releasing ghost-light sakura petals into the winds that carry them away. It’s silent, some for himself to gather his thoughts, some for letting whoever’s listening to him think. Maybe it is rambling, but the experience he went through…]

So what are our rights? Does anyone want to tell me how this is supposed to work?

All of this may not be something some of you gods care about.

But the shinki should know.

[His is a quiet voice, deep like the dark waters far below the surface of the sea.]

I’m aware I’m probably a rare case; most of the gods I’ve met seem decent. Some of you say you’d never act like I’ve described or think like this towards a shinki. That we can trust you. But we don’t know you. So how can we trust you? Ultimately we have to trust our gods because we don’t know anything else. Whether you use that to your advantage or not is up to you.

It’s a disgusting feeling to know you’re powerless against someone else. I can be stolen and wielded by any god who wants me, regardless of how I feel about it. And if I don’t want that, I have to eternally stick by my Master’s side like a frightened child. We’re not free; we can’t even rely on ourselves because our powers, beyond the borderline, is useless unless directed by a god. I didn’t want this, I don’t know if any shinki does.

[A quiet breath seeps backwards above the screen and the edge of a shirt sleeve flutters into view on one side of the screen. Sousuke’s leaning against the wall beside the window, not in sight, but obviously here if someone feels like talking.]

And if any of you gods haven’t yet learned how to track or trace your shinki, you should start working on that now. Otherwise you're going to find yourself out a useful tool for a while simply because some other god wants to do something different for a change.
pure_radiantics: (convo] huh?)

[personal profile] pure_radiantics 2016-12-23 12:47 am (UTC)(link)
Do?

[What an odd question.]

I dunno. Maybe have a slumber party? Form a club ball game group? I'm sure we can find something to do.
lilys_poise: (Aww YEAH!)

[personal profile] lilys_poise 2016-12-23 02:43 am (UTC)(link)
That's a good point.

[Mollified since he's agreeing with her, Elise smiles.]

I guess we'll just have to be stubborn together.

latentforlife: (And left us somewhat reelin')

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[personal profile] latentforlife 2016-12-23 01:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh.

[Okay, so that's not something he's thought about until just now.]
latentforlife: (We're the seven deadly sins)

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[personal profile] latentforlife 2016-12-23 01:23 pm (UTC)(link)
So. About that.
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latentforlife: (Together undivided but forever we'll be)

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[personal profile] latentforlife 2016-12-23 01:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Would you mind helping me find a way to get money so I can pay some places back?
risetocaesar: (Emperor.)

Private

[personal profile] risetocaesar 2016-12-24 05:36 am (UTC)(link)
Sanada Akihiko.

[May as well slip that introduction in there, right?]
ephydriade: (distracted.)

LOOK he wants to be free.... (seriously tho...) also 10 years later orz

[personal profile] ephydriade 2016-12-24 06:14 am (UTC)(link)
[ maybe other shinki would have been happy with Makoto... Haru, however, is a "special snowflake". mostly in the sense that he's not impressed that easily, and his first impression of Makoto was far from positive. their relationship hasn't been entirely stellar, and while it seemed tame briefly and even showed signs of moving upwards at one point, it all came crashing back down in the blink of an eye.

he wants answers. a reason why he should be okay with being forced to be someone's shinki. but instead he's been given empty answers and restraint and he's not happy one bit. he wonders if anyone would be happy if they were in this sort of predicament, really. considering how Sousuke is questioning everything at the moment, he's assuming no one (in their right mind, at least) would.

at the mention of fighting against the gods, Haru's fist clenches. he's not a fighter. just the thought of it is far from appealing to him. so that's pretty much a dead end. he heaves an annoyed sigh at the second part. ]


... I guess I'll just keep my distance for now.
pure_radiantics: (convo] worried about you)

[personal profile] pure_radiantics 2016-12-25 01:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Well... you asked what I would do with a bunch of my friends - as a group, I thought.

[Seems best to explain that.]

If I'm hanging out with them individually, it would be a lot different.
lilys_poise: (It'll work out)

[personal profile] lilys_poise 2016-12-26 12:24 am (UTC)(link)
Well, yeah. But... so do we. Right?

[The shinkis' opinions of themselves are just as important as the gods' opinions.]

Maybe we should make that club.
dominatriarch: ([...] | I want you to make me)

[personal profile] dominatriarch 2016-12-26 01:47 pm (UTC)(link)
An advanced technique like that will require further training.

[ She isn't one to talk about shinki magic. While she knows what shinki are capable of, she won't be able to teach it properly.

But thankfully there's someone she knows who can. ]


Speak to my exemplar, Kazuma. He'll know best how to advise you.
sharkmaid: (⚡ bad dreams)

[personal profile] sharkmaid 2016-12-28 01:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[At this moment in time, Rin isn't sure who or what he's supposed to believe and whether or not it would be morally right to do so. Ever since arriving here, he's been at war with himself. His sense of justice, his pride, morale, and emotions. Just because he believes certain practices and laws are wrong in this world, doesn't mean they actually are by the higher ups' standards. He can fight and argue and disagree with everything as much as he wants... and in the end this will be the result. This awful sting, the agonizing weight within his chest.

Is any of the pain truly worth it?

Rin doesn't respond to Sousuke's question, because once they're moving through time and space, funny enough, there's no time to form a proper response. In an instant, they've arrived, and in an instant the walls seem to be shrinking in on them, tighter and tighter with each suffocating sensation Sousuke feels. Revulsion, panic, distrust. He wants to leave, he has to leave, and if he doesn't--

Were he more experienced with this, he might be able to stand on his own two feet. He might be able to speak clearly, normally, and casually walk himself to the water source without his shinki's assistance. But he's brand new and he's terrified and truth be told, the moment Sousuke catches onto his shoulder, Rin has to bite back a startled yell. He's still a human under all of this, a human that's telling him he's going to die if they don't fix this quick. So... it's probably for the best that Sousuke takes action when he does, hoisting him up off the ground quick enough to make Rin's head spin.]


I'm fine, I'm fine... Oy...

[He'd complain more about this, but it's hard to concentrate when all he wants to do is keep adding pressure to his neck. Still, somehow he cracks one eye open and slowly gestures across the room to where a door leads to another, much smaller room inside. He should have teleported them in there to begin with, but, again. New to this. The pool was the first thing on his mind.]
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latentforlife: (We're the seven deadly sins)

Gray morals ftw

[personal profile] latentforlife 2016-12-29 04:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[Yup, this is going to be a challenge for Shuusei.]

I can ask her for some money to pay them back, other than that maybe I can look around and see what I can do for work. Maybe respond to one time ads or something.
risetocaesar: (That's right.)

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[personal profile] risetocaesar 2016-12-29 11:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah. Take care until then.

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