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山崎 宗介 || Yamazaki Sōsuke ([personal profile] takenwithhim) wrote in [community profile] thefarshore2016-11-30 10:02 pm

Heaven's BBS | Text & Video ~ A Stolen Voice


Posted: May 21st
From: Sousuke Yamazaki

What are shinki?

I’ve not been here long, so I don’t know the truth. Apparently no shinki can. But I’ve experienced enough.

I don’t like it.

We’re shinki. We weren’t told anything upon our arrival. All we knew is that we’re dead and know nothing else. Other shinki probably had the same experience I did: stumble around until someone told me I had to find a god or something before something bad happened to me. We have to rely on whatever our gods tell us as the truth. We’re told we’re supposed to help our gods with their duties and wants and protect them or fight for them. We can’t exist without you; gods give us form and prevent us from fading away. We have to depend on you to survive.

So what are we to you?

I have a god. A Master. He tells me that I’m human more than I’m his shinki. I don’t know if I believe him entirely.

Not all Masters are like that, are they. Some don’t care what a shinki feels. I guess that’s not far from the truth though. After all, shinki are really nothing more than tools to gods. Gods can pick us up simply because they want something from us. Maybe you feel good having us at your side because you think we remind you of something. Maybe you want us because we’re useful to you or you like our looks or fit your fighting style or powers.

But if it doesn’t work out, if we piss our gods off or don’t please them, they’re allowed to discard us like a broken item. Gods can even cycle through us one after another until they’ve found the perfect tool to fit their current needs. And when you’re done, you can throw us away until you’re ready to use us again. Or left to wander for someone else to maybe pick up before we fade away into nothing.

And we have no choice but to come when you call us whether we want to or not. Because we’re nothing without you. We’re valuable possessions to keep close or useful but expendable objects to get the job done.

I don’t know if all gods are aware of this; I know the shinki aren’t. Gods can even steal shinki from another god without asking. Force a new name upon us and give us a new form and power. And if we’re stubborn, apparently blackmail and threats are just as effective. Or you can simply hurt us until we break or get rid of us because we’re not working as you want. Like we’re some kind of toy for your amusement.

We’re told we’re entering a partnership with our gods, but in reality, it only goes one way. We have to choose between vanishing or living as a weapon, companion, prize, tool, whatever, for a god we don’t even know.

If you’re a shinki, think about this. If you’re a god, ask yourself why you have a shinki.



[A video feed flicks on. A full moon glows yellow in the sky above, encircled by spiraling clouds. The edge of a sakura tree billows pink and gentle at one side of the screen, releasing ghost-light sakura petals into the winds that carry them away. It’s silent, some for himself to gather his thoughts, some for letting whoever’s listening to him think. Maybe it is rambling, but the experience he went through…]

So what are our rights? Does anyone want to tell me how this is supposed to work?

All of this may not be something some of you gods care about.

But the shinki should know.

[His is a quiet voice, deep like the dark waters far below the surface of the sea.]

I’m aware I’m probably a rare case; most of the gods I’ve met seem decent. Some of you say you’d never act like I’ve described or think like this towards a shinki. That we can trust you. But we don’t know you. So how can we trust you? Ultimately we have to trust our gods because we don’t know anything else. Whether you use that to your advantage or not is up to you.

It’s a disgusting feeling to know you’re powerless against someone else. I can be stolen and wielded by any god who wants me, regardless of how I feel about it. And if I don’t want that, I have to eternally stick by my Master’s side like a frightened child. We’re not free; we can’t even rely on ourselves because our powers, beyond the borderline, is useless unless directed by a god. I didn’t want this, I don’t know if any shinki does.

[A quiet breath seeps backwards above the screen and the edge of a shirt sleeve flutters into view on one side of the screen. Sousuke’s leaning against the wall beside the window, not in sight, but obviously here if someone feels like talking.]

And if any of you gods haven’t yet learned how to track or trace your shinki, you should start working on that now. Otherwise you're going to find yourself out a useful tool for a while simply because some other god wants to do something different for a change.
risetocaesar: (41)

Private

[personal profile] risetocaesar 2016-12-19 01:17 am (UTC)(link)
Sometimes it's surprising just how much an apology can do. It can go a long way.
shockshot: (hee)

text;

[personal profile] shockshot 2016-12-19 02:26 am (UTC)(link)
For sure.

And all right. Feel free to call me up whenever, okay?


[If nothing else, he can get free food.]
lilys_poise: (Stop being stubborn!)

[personal profile] lilys_poise 2016-12-19 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
[He's right. She knows he is.]

That's definitely not.... not true at all!

[But Elise is stubborn. And she's not ready to face this particular uncomfortable truth yet.]people.
lilys_poise: (You're a bad influence!)

[personal profile] lilys_poise 2016-12-20 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
I am not stubborn!

[She says while pouting stubbornly. Bastion of maturity over here.]

No matter what anybody thinks of us, we're still people.
pure_radiantics: (convo] all smiles)

[personal profile] pure_radiantics 2016-12-20 05:47 am (UTC)(link)
Well it's still something.

[She doesn't want to say 'it can only go up from here' and jynx it.]
shockshot: (content)

Re: text;

[personal profile] shockshot 2016-12-20 05:52 am (UTC)(link)
I'll be waiting.

[Who knows. He'll get teased about it, maybe.]
lilys_poise: (Aw I lost?)

[personal profile] lilys_poise 2016-12-21 02:23 am (UTC)(link)
You're the one who's stubborn!

[So there.]

And it doesn't matter if we're dead. That doesn't make us any less... us.
risetocaesar: (43)

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[personal profile] risetocaesar 2016-12-21 06:37 am (UTC)(link)
Good luck. I'll let you go, but I really hope it goes well.
sharkmaid: (⚡ sleepy shark)

[personal profile] sharkmaid 2016-12-21 08:34 am (UTC)(link)
[After this mess settles, then they can come back and discuss whatever they want, assuming they don't pass out first. As it is, Rin doesn't want to potentially aggravate any more pain for either of them with reckless conversation, so he keeps quiet to get this over with as soon as possible. They'll come to terms. Eventually. Hopefully sooner rather than later.

But first they'll have to tackle this unfortunate hurdle.

He meets that gaze with one of his own, and though he seems exhausted he's managing to keep his eyes open and even take a couple steps to follow behind. The last time they saw the pool, their experience was awful, to say the least, but avoiding the problem won't do them any good and they can't afford to look for another source of holy water on such short notice. Sousuke needs Rin to be at his best. He needs to be able to fight with him and protect him if need be. He's in no condition to do either of those things now.]


I can teleport us there.

[Might take him a moment to focus, but he can try.]

Just give me a second.
latentforlife: (In the search for liberty)

Re: text

[personal profile] latentforlife 2016-12-21 03:41 pm (UTC)(link)
I just kind of walk in and pick up a few things. No one really pays us any mind.

[He hasn't really thought twice about it.]
sharkmaid: (⚡ is he sucking his own dick)

[personal profile] sharkmaid 2016-12-22 11:37 am (UTC)(link)
[For as much as Rin wants their partnership to work out, he doesn't want to force Sousuke to accept it or even ease into it if his heart truly tells him not to. It's why he's upset things ended up this way, with Sousuke approaching him first to apologize and now standing here with guilt in his heart. He feels as if he's forcing him to do something he doesn't want to do. Maybe he didn't want to see him tonight. Maybe he didn't want to speak to him or associate with him ever again. And now here he is, moving forward, calling him his friend...

He doesn't want to see him this way again either.

Rin's about to make his way over to Sousuke's side when his shinki does the work for him and to his surprise even takes his arm to loop it over his shoulders.]


Hey. Careful. It might hurt you too.

[The spot burns and tingles, and no matter if it's small or not, he doesn't want to risk blighting Sousuke by mistake. He doesn't expect him to let up or change his mind though, so after taking a second to more evenly distribute his weight he takes a deep breath then channels some of his energy towards his core. Now let's see. What did it look like? Where is it in relation to them? Another second, another image-- Now.

Gripping onto Sousuke's shirt, Rin sends them both drifting through time and space and in no time at all they're back on their feet, only this time with the scent of chlorine lingering in the air. It's still dark, but with the god's presence the lights in the water flicker to life to bathe the large room with a pale blue hue. He's sure it's beautiful. A sight he's missed and been away from for far too long.

But as soon as they arrive, Rin slumps forward, head hung, and reaches up to touch the tender skin on his neck while the sting persists. It's almost like being cut.]
latentforlife: (And left us somewhat reelin')

Re: text

[personal profile] latentforlife 2016-12-22 03:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[It wasn't a dumb question so much as Shuusei didn't quite catch on to the issue here until that second question.]

Are we supposed to?

[It's hard to portray in text, but that's an honest question from Shuusei. He knows how money works but it never even occurred to him to try and pay for things. He's starting to wonder why that is.]

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