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[missingache]

Posted: May 2
From: Artemis

Selene and Aphrodite left. Selene's shinki Riku is gone, too. If anyone was friends with them, just wanted to let you know that's why you can't find them.

And for anyone who doesn't know, Axel is dead.

[Roxas isn't going to go into more details on that last one.]

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[saikusu]

I didn't know you knew Axel as well.

It sounds like you've lost a lot of friends. I'm sorry to hear that.

[He isn't sure what else to say to this. It's not like he has memories of losing anyone in the past. The only person (that he knows of) that he's lost is Axel, and they were acquaintances at best, so it wasn't as though he felt a great sense of loss himself. He liked Axel, and maybe they could have become friends with time, but that's not something he can have now. There's no point dwelling on it. Still, he can offer Roxas his condolences.]

[missingache]

He was my best friend, and one of my shinki.

No, it's okay. I'm used to it.

[Roxas has lost so many people in his life that he's just numb to the entire thing. He's cried for them already, and he'll miss them, but he knows this will keep happening. He still does appreciate the condolences.]

[saikusu]

I see. He was only an acquaintance of mine.

You're used to losing four friends at once?

[missingache]

6. Kaneki and Ionasal left, too.

I've lost more at once.

[saikusu]

And yet you continue to form attachments to people despite knowing how likely it is you'll lose them too?

[missingache]

[Really? Really?]

What, you think I should be a hermit and just ignore everyone around me instead?!

[private]

[saikusu]

That's not what I meant, Roxas. I'm impressed by your fortitude.

Friendship doesn't come easily to me. At least I don't think it does. I've been here over two weeks now and have no one I consider a friend yet. You're among the very small handful of people here who are becoming more than just acquaintances. Already I've lost one of few people I even know. It's not very encouraging to invest time and energy in forming a friendship when they could disappear at any moment.

[private]

[missingache]

[He has to re-read this a few times before he can get himself to reply. This is still so strange thinking that Saïx was trying to comfort him???]

Even if they leave, I like having friends. It makes things easier to deal with if you have others around you.

[private]

[saikusu]

[Trying being the operative word. He's not all that great at it. Clearly.]

Things like dealing with losing other friends?

[private]

[missingache]

[It's better than being a dick to children all the time.]

Yeah. That's something that friends can do for each other.

[private]

[saikusu]

[Hey, he's not a dick to children all the time. Just often.]

Do you consider me a friend?

[private]

[missingache]

[What?

He's going to take a while to reply, staring at this text. Friends? No. Maybe? It was complicated.]

I don't know yet.

[private]

[saikusu]

I would have been surprised if you said yes.

[private]

[missingache]

I don't like lying.

[private]

[saikusu]

Neither do I.

[private]

[missingache]

Would you even want to be friends?

[private]

[saikusu]

I think you're a good kid, Roxas. Perhaps some time in the future, I would not mind calling you a friend.

[private]

[missingache]

[Whoa. That is different. Way different from what Roxas 'grew up' with.]

Really?

[private]

[saikusu]

Didn't we just discuss the fact that neither of us likes lying? Why would I turn around and lie in the very next thing I say?

[Seriously, Roxas, what reason has he ever given you to distrust what he says? Well, what reason that he knows of has he given you?]

[private]

[missingache]

I know. I'm just iffy with adults sometimes.

[None as of yet.]

[private]

[saikusu]

I hope that eventually you will find you have no reason to feel iffy about me.