[But for all the joking around, there's a serious topic too. Ginia looks at the question. There's always the faint warning in the back of her mind to not think too hard on things, don't look too close, but it's in her nature. To pry, to seek, to pull apart and destroy, it's what she's so good at.
(It can be channeled in constructive ways. She can build and support, she can create good news. But doubt can eat away so easily in the dark of night.)
The new generation, the old generation, there are differences. Sometimes she wants to ask if anyone else feels incompatible. She's afraid of what might happen if she does.]
I don't know, to be honest.
I know what I know, I know what I didn't know when I first arrived. The skills I had versus the skills I was lacking versus what everyone else knew. I wasn't compatible with my first god either so for a very long time, I felt purposeless.
Sad as it sounds, being a tool I never had an issue with. It felt right. Follow orders, serve my god, be a good shinki, I didn't question it because I desperately wanted to be useful. Like I said, I was a mess.
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(It can be channeled in constructive ways. She can build and support, she can create good news. But doubt can eat away so easily in the dark of night.)
The new generation, the old generation, there are differences. Sometimes she wants to ask if anyone else feels incompatible. She's afraid of what might happen if she does.]
I don't know, to be honest.
I know what I know, I know what I didn't know when I first arrived. The skills I had versus the skills I was lacking versus what everyone else knew. I wasn't compatible with my first god either so for a very long time, I felt purposeless.
Sad as it sounds, being a tool I never had an issue with. It felt right. Follow orders, serve my god, be a good shinki, I didn't question it because I desperately wanted to be useful. Like I said, I was a mess.