text | Balor

[curruid_coinchenn]

to those that knew her, irisviel von einzbern is gone. make note of it.

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[curruid_coinchenn]

it's not that it's wrong, it's that i have no interest in keeping them for my own sake. it would be easier if i could let them go because these feelings would pass faster. but i hold onto them for her sake so she is not forgotten.

[futhark]

You've cared for her. [ Not a question, a statement. That's it, that's what he gets from this. Along with "now I've got feelings and they hurt" But yeah, it runs way deeper than just losing a weapon, and somehow Caster is glad. ] I agree, it is your duty to not forget, both as a god, and as a friend.

[ Don't try to deny the last one, you spike-head. ]

[curruid_coinchenn]

[ Damn it, stop being right. Berserker is genuinely at a loss for what to do with himself right now and he hates it. ]

... she was a tool, nothing more. [ A lie to distance himself. ] i did care for her, though, but only because i was her god.

[ Another lie. ]

[futhark]

Keep telling yourself that, but does it really matter what she was, and why you cared? We're Servants, we're but just tools as well.

[ Really in the greater scheme, everyone could be seen as one. A warrior is a weapon for their ruler to wield. A ruler is a tool of issuing the order and making land prosper- if he or she is stupid or inefficient those around will make sure to dethrone someone like that.

A ping of an attachment being sent follows, it's a link on the map to a forest in the rural part of Hokkaido ]

A black bear woke up early and mauled two people from a nearby small town. It's been coming dangerously close to people's abodes and either hunger or some sickness makes it incredibly aggressive. Care for a hunt?

[ Not that Caster is a master in coping in healthy way. Get drunk, or get into a fight is mostly his way. Move on as quickly as possible and don't think too much, don't dwell too much. ]

[curruid_coinchenn]

we are just tools and that suits me just fine.

[ Berserker won't even address the rest of that. It means making himself more vulnerable to his lighter side and that's the last thing he wants.

He hates how right Caster is. He hates everything about this situation. These emotions were long buried, long covered, long forgotten. Irisviel brought them to the surface again and...who knows? Maybe if she'd stayed, the damage done by Medb may have slowly been undone. He'd already been softened some, but now that softness was getting covered up once again. Scar tissue on top of scar tissue.

He knows what Caster's doing with the offered hunt and, even if he won't say it, he appreciates it. ]

let's go. it won't survive the day.

[futhark]

[ Caster is surprised that he gets invited for the hunt. Luckily the short moment of surprise is impossible to be told via text, and sure as hell, he is going to accompany Berserker. ]

I'll track it down for ya in no time.

[ And then probably no fur and no cut for bear-stew was left. RIP dangerous wildlife, you kind of asked for it ]