It seems like your problem isn't how gods, or other shinki, might see your role. The problem is that you feel like being in that role puts you in the position of being a tool, instead of being independent.
Which is valid, of course. It's just that it won't do any good for us to talk about gods who disagree if the real problem is how you see your role.
My advice would be to embrace your independence. Shinki aren't required to stay with gods they don't want to work with, for example.
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Which is valid, of course. It's just that it won't do any good for us to talk about gods who disagree if the real problem is how you see your role.
My advice would be to embrace your independence. Shinki aren't required to stay with gods they don't want to work with, for example.