[Ayumu understands too well how bitterness can linger on long after a hurtful event. It's her main issue with the concept that she should simply comply and forgive those that hurt her because they'd been well-intentioned. She'd suffered for hours and died in nightmarish fashion while pleading for mercy; experiences like that leave wounds that won't heal overnight. She understands that those that were hurt, too, by what happened will take time to heal. But life has to go on, broken bonds, mistrust, and hurt feelings regardless.]
i agree. my priorities now are recovery and helping keep other shinki from going through the same pain. heaven's over reliance on ablution as a method of help brought disaster. now that i know how i died, i know that it wasn't a viable solution for me. the ritual is deeply dangerous for a shinki who has died violently while imprisoned. i wish to look into alternative methods to the ritual and ways of preventing its necessity in time.
[Recovery is her priority for now. Ayumu's no help to anyone if she remains as unstable as she's been.]
but for now, i hope that the vigil brings some peace to someone and gives an opportunity to seek support for those who do not wish to mourn or reflect alone.
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i agree.
my priorities now are recovery
and helping keep other shinki from going through the same pain.
heaven's over reliance on ablution
as a method of help brought disaster.
now that i know how i died,
i know that it wasn't a viable solution for me.
the ritual is deeply dangerous
for a shinki who has died violently while imprisoned.
i wish to look into alternative methods to the ritual
and ways of preventing its necessity in time.
[Recovery is her priority for now. Ayumu's no help to anyone if she remains as unstable as she's been.]
but for now,
i hope that the vigil brings some peace to someone
and gives an opportunity to seek support
for those who do not wish to mourn or reflect alone.