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[reformedsinner]

Posted: 28 May
From: Anonymous

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I have a question for the shinki among us.

How important to you is your connection to your god?

If you could go without a name, and not worry about your safety or a place to stay, would you prefer to?


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Comments

[reformedsinner]

Do you think they would refuse?

Having an unhappy shinki isn't good for the god, either, generally.

[concasse]

not what I meant

it's the principle of the matter

they got the power telling me what to do

[reformedsinner]

Ah, I see.

Well, we are their servants, in the end.

[concasse]

[Seriously, what is with all the shinki in this place settling for servitude?]

they should've kept me in the ground if they expected me to blindly follow orders

[reformedsinner]

We don't have to follow orders, but there are certain things about being a shinki that we can't ignore.

One of which is that, although we can encourage our gods to make decisions, it is still their decision in the end.

[twiceinhabited]

I'm forever grateful to my god for giving me a name and a place.

No, I wouldn't. I wish to be of help to someone and to humans. Without a god, I doubt I would be able to do as much.

[reformedsinner]

Perhaps we new shinki aren't so different from the old after all.

I've heard that more than once today. So the primary importance of a god, to you, is to enable you to do more to help others?

[twiceinhabited]

That might be so.

That is a way to see it. It's like I'm using a god, and that's why I work hard in other things to make up for it. She brings out the power I can't summon by myself, I help out with other tasks that doesn't need it.

[Granted, most of that was self-imposed tasks Amane gave to herself to help take care of the temple.]

[reformedsinner]

I've always thought of it as their using us. Not that that is necessarily a bad thing, of course, so long as we have the same objective.

[toremainbehind]

That's kind of you to do that.

[darkduelist]

In that case I can tell you that I didn't get along with my first god. We had a different view on many things or maybe we were just too stubborn to understand one another. In any case, when we first met we already knew we wouldn't get along and he even suggested I should find a different god.

But I didn't leave. I wanted to believe that we can find a way to work together. Though it was only one of the reasons. But I don't regret that I didn't leave. I'm glad I stayed with him to the very end.

[reformedsinner]

No, not really. I feel some responsibility for him, that's all.

Would you go without a god, if you could?

[reformedsinner]

Did you grow to like him in the end? Or would you have simply regretted abandoning him?

[darkduelist]

Well something... happened and then, when we talked things through I realized that I probably misjudged him. That was when I thought that we would finally get along.

But then he was gone and never returned.

[reformedsinner]

I see.

I apologize for prying.

[darkduelist]

There's no need to apologize. If I didn't want to answer, I wouldn't.

[reformedsinner]

Of course.

Still, thinking of lost gods can be painful.

[darkduelist]

Thinking about every person who left can be painful. But we have to hope that they're safe and that we will see them again. That's all we can do.

[reformedsinner]

I'm sorry to say it, but I don't think they're safe at all.

[darkduelist]

You don't? Why?

[reformedsinner]

I saw the soul of someone who had disappeared in one of those corpses at the festival.

[darkduelist]

Really?!

But when... one of my friends came back he was okay.

[reformedsinner]

I've heard of others coming back.

It's possible that different things happen to different people.

[darkduelist]

Now I'm worried. If there only was a way we could find out what is happening with those who left...

[reformedsinner]

I'd like to, too. Maybe if we can find out what's keeping us here, it will help us understand where the missing have gone.