[He hadn't ruled it out, blighting, though he only heard it in passing and thus had a vague idea of what it was to begin with. Spurred by guilt, certain actions shinki do will in turn affect their god... What does Sousuke have to feel guilty over when he's done nothing wrong? It makes little sense to Rin and he's angry with himself for even considering Sousuke to be the cause. But if not that, then what?
He's running out of options and solutions and the longer he stands here thinking about that, the more pain he feels. It's not until he hears that quiet realization that Rin oddly enough seems to release completely, letting go of the remaining tension in his hands and legs specifically. Somehow, hearing it out in the open like that feels validating, like they won't have to go back and forth with guessing and vague explanations anymore. He might not be able to see it, but he can feel it... and he can feel Sousuke in his heart just as well.
He's heavy. Heavy and cold and angry. So many emotions flood his veins at once, they leave him dizzy and overwhelmed. Will he ever grow used to this? Something tells him not...
Answer him. Tell him 'no'. Tell him something to ease the pain for them both.]
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He's running out of options and solutions and the longer he stands here thinking about that, the more pain he feels. It's not until he hears that quiet realization that Rin oddly enough seems to release completely, letting go of the remaining tension in his hands and legs specifically. Somehow, hearing it out in the open like that feels validating, like they won't have to go back and forth with guessing and vague explanations anymore. He might not be able to see it, but he can feel it... and he can feel Sousuke in his heart just as well.
He's heavy. Heavy and cold and angry. So many emotions flood his veins at once, they leave him dizzy and overwhelmed. Will he ever grow used to this? Something tells him not...
Answer him. Tell him 'no'. Tell him something to ease the pain for them both.]
... Yes.
[And I know you don't mean to.]