Hakkai, I don't know why I do that. It feels natural for me. It's just attached to something that is me, and I don't know how to stop it. Do you think if I wanted to keep doing it, I would be talking to you like this right now?
[He has to pause for a moment. He feels so lost, so trapped, so out of sorts.]
It feels like if I don't do it, I'm hurting myself. And worst of all, Leo seems to have no problems with it at all. Which makes me feel like this is a part of me that was here long before I died.
It is difficult. Because he knows so much about me, and I feel like I have to pry it out of him to get it.
I'd rather not have to keep prying all my problems out of him. Which is why I guess I'm talking to you right now.
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[He has to pause for a moment. He feels so lost, so trapped, so out of sorts.]
It feels like if I don't do it, I'm hurting myself. And worst of all, Leo seems to have no problems with it at all. Which makes me feel like this is a part of me that was here long before I died.
It is difficult. Because he knows so much about me, and I feel like I have to pry it out of him to get it.
I'd rather not have to keep prying all my problems out of him. Which is why I guess I'm talking to you right now.